***SIGH*** 
Damn the girl....damn the girl.
I think it's finally time for me to fucking move on and get over her. She finally kinda pissed me off yesterday.
After going to the strip bar Friday night with a really good friend, the girl started in on me again with the flirting and quizzing me about the other one. She knows damn well I've been trying to get over her but everytime I make progress she does stuff to pull me right back to her. At one point, she bent over in front of me and flashed her fucking sexy panties. I said "I've told you, you need to not do that." She did that sexy smirk and said "I do it on purpose b/c I know how you love it."
And I do....can't lie. I love it when she flirts like she does. It's great. She also did the orgasmic sounding "God, you smell so fucking good...." Anyway, to make a long story short, I ended up pretty much begging her to come to the bar....The last communication of the night and what really should end it was the following text.
ME: Fuck, I wish you would come out tonight. After today, I would love to put my hands all over your body....
HER: Lol enjoy your time lady
I ended up getting pissed at that, and I went through 4 coke & rum's in like 20 mins. I already had 2 before the text was sent. I even started snapping at my friend Tonya a little bit which makes me upset with myself. I ended up sitting listening to the music, looking pissed off, and texting my "secret lover" all night, until my friend Kristy came over slammed my phone on the table by Tonya, grabbed my hand and pulled me out on the floor to dance with her. I then actually had some fun and let loose. We ended up dancing the rest of the show, it was wonderful. Then the best part....my "secret lover" showed up to help cheer me up since she knew how upset I was over the text. We had beer and played pool until they closed the bar down. It turned out to be a good night after all.....
However, I know starting Tuesday, when I see the other one, no matter how pissed off I am at her, she'll still end up having me beg her to come for my birthday celebration......I really do want her to be there almost above anyone else and I wish I didn't........
Damn the girl....damn the girl.
I think it's finally time for me to fucking move on and get over her. She finally kinda pissed me off yesterday.
After going to the strip bar Friday night with a really good friend, the girl started in on me again with the flirting and quizzing me about the other one. She knows damn well I've been trying to get over her but everytime I make progress she does stuff to pull me right back to her. At one point, she bent over in front of me and flashed her fucking sexy panties. I said "I've told you, you need to not do that." She did that sexy smirk and said "I do it on purpose b/c I know how you love it."
And I do....can't lie. I love it when she flirts like she does. It's great. She also did the orgasmic sounding "God, you smell so fucking good...." Anyway, to make a long story short, I ended up pretty much begging her to come to the bar....The last communication of the night and what really should end it was the following text.
ME: Fuck, I wish you would come out tonight. After today, I would love to put my hands all over your body....
HER: Lol enjoy your time lady
I ended up getting pissed at that, and I went through 4 coke & rum's in like 20 mins. I already had 2 before the text was sent. I even started snapping at my friend Tonya a little bit which makes me upset with myself. I ended up sitting listening to the music, looking pissed off, and texting my "secret lover" all night, until my friend Kristy came over slammed my phone on the table by Tonya, grabbed my hand and pulled me out on the floor to dance with her. I then actually had some fun and let loose. We ended up dancing the rest of the show, it was wonderful. Then the best part....my "secret lover" showed up to help cheer me up since she knew how upset I was over the text. We had beer and played pool until they closed the bar down. It turned out to be a good night after all.....
However, I know starting Tuesday, when I see the other one, no matter how pissed off I am at her, she'll still end up having me beg her to come for my birthday celebration......I really do want her to be there almost above anyone else and I wish I didn't........
you know that you deserve more....hopefully one day you will have the strength to walk away