Ok, so you know how I stated that I was going to probably work through my feelings toward the boy. Well, I was succeeding pretty well. I was finally starting to look at him and not get that swooning feeling. In a way it made me really sad, but I really feel it's time to move on.
Now, I'm going to go into a little detail about it, so if you don't want to read, skip on..........
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I've been crushing on him for like 8 or 9 months now. I'm positive that he knew. I mean how could he not? The whole store knew without me ever mentioning to them. I actually was trying to get him to do things and doing all the flirting that I had in me and not much response. Like I said before, I would get a little bit and it would look like it was progress but then, it would be right back where we started. So, that is why I decided to give up.
I also know me too....if there was that chance that he liked me back. Normally, it would be over anyway. Seeing how I am doomed to only want the things I can not have. I always either pull away and run or totally avoid the situation at whole if they like me. It's kinda crazy and that's one reason I believe that I'm destined to live alone with my chlidren (because I will one day for sure have kids even if I have to do it alone).
Tonight, was the first night that I've worked a full shift with him since I've been working on my feelings. I was doing great. However there was one set back. There was a moment where I was at the register and he had to get something on the other side of me. Well he put his hand on my arm and kind of leaned over and that's when I caught his scent......*SIGH* That made me swoon a little again. Also, he did the puppy dog face to me at one point when I was picking on him and that does it too......
I think it's going to take some time, but I swear I'm going to get past this and move on. However, it does make me sad that I won't have that feeling anymore. And who knows when it will return..........
Now, how come the only people I get hit on by are the nasty people I don't want to touch with a 10 foot pole?? 
Tonight, as normal, a skanky redneck that smelled and looked like he hasn't taken a bath in about a week comes up and wants me to add minutes on him prepaid phone for him. Well, I take the card and the phone, ring him up in the register and proceed to put the minutes on. It takes me about 5 minutes as usual. I hand him the phone back and he looks at me and says, "Can I ask you a question?" This is when I know what is about to go down....it's the same look you always get....
I reply "Yes..." and he says "Are you married or single." Now, I know I should have just lied and said that I was married, but my face doesn't allow me to lie. Even when I want to. So, I reply that I'm single. That's when he proceeded to ask me out to dinner. I was nice. I smiled and said that I just wasn't dating at the moment.
I just don't understand why a resonable nice looking charming guy or girl can't ask me out. Why do I only attract the ones who look like they will take me out to the backyard to serve me up some roadkill they cooked yesterday?? 
I just don't know........
Ok, I guess that's enough for the ranting today.....sorry it was so long.....BLAH maybe the next one will be better
It's funny what you said about having kids even if you don't find a man. Before I met Steven that's what I use to say too. Don't try so hard to find a man cause your biological clock is ticking. You'll end up with an idiot or no one at all. Don't worry, you'll find someone. :-) Your to sexy not to.
I love Katherine Heigl too. I think I've seen her in everything she's been in. Even the old obscure World Of Disney tv movies she was in back in the day...lol. I also watched Roswell.
Anywho, your blog wasn't too long or boring. Blogs are like mini diaries online. Write what you feel girl. :-)