I noticed we had some SG homework from our lovely inspirations @Missy and @Radeo going on around the site and this subject really hit home with me as a long term member and Hopeful. I still can't believe I have been here since 2008. All the times I have threatened to close my account because of silly drama and not thinking I could do it and here I am still trucking along lol. Congrats to me for sticking to my guns!
The main thing that attracted me to SG was women doing what they wanted regardless of opinion. That is me completely and I also believed in being comfortable in your own skin enough to show it to the world.
Of course that brings us to the many judgements and scrutiny I have gone through in my personal life because of it. I have embraced it to the fullest and shown that it's me, I love doing it, and I will never stop! I've even been accused of doing it for attention purpose only. I'm sure we have all gone through this or are even now. I have only one thing to say....
The naked body has been art for years!!! What's the difference showing it online in our own special way?!
I feel like a Super Hero in front of the camera and when I post my pictures on SG! I feel beautiful, (thank you fans for your love) , I feel fun and enlightened, I feel inspired of all the gorgeous women. I enjoy making friends in the community and around the world. I feel accomplished that I am brave enough to do something like this! I love it and it's become a permanent part of my life,whether I become Pink or not I will always enjoy this place.
Loving what you do is most important to be happy I believe. If I ever really doubted myself for a second about my ambition to become a Suicide Girl I would of left in the beginning. When I was in high school I wasn't the prettiest or thinnest of girls. I'm still not lol. SG has given me an outlet to be that girl in my own heart, to show myself I am beautiful.
Sometimes I have felt like the Ugly Duckling becoming the Swan since I have become a Hopeful. A lot of people (75% of them guys lol) that never noticed I existed before suddenly track me down me down online after they find out. It's kind of silly. The funniest is the jock who put gum in your hair who now blows up your inbox with date offers. Do they even realize nothing has really changed except I'm naked, nope.
Well maybe my life has changed a bit but not me. Not my heart. It races with anticipation of the thoughts of doing a photo shoot and seeing the results. It's like magic! I hope one day, like all Hopefuls do, that my set will be on the front page. But until then I'm just going to kick back, take it easy and dream about what it could be like. ;)
