snapdragonpoppy

I gotta get out there and make some real friends that are not on the other side of the world. if I could do that I wonder.....

nahh, too much work, possible rejection. I'm content to live vicariously through reality tv shows. one day...

I'v been in here day dreaming and posting in random places a lot as of late.

I day dream mostly about being a welthy woman who travels as she pleases. I usualy have my hubby with me, and he never gets irritated when I want to make a list of things I have read about or seen on tv, and we do everything in style....
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happy New Year, heer's to the next one being better than ever.

already a bit of abummer, In all honesty this holiday season has been a real touchy on efor me, my feelings have been in an up roar the entire time. I can't eat my feelings any more so I'm a little bit of a pain in the rear, but we'll all live.

I am in the process of trying to make new friends, I still want the old ones, don't get me wrong. I just want to expand my circle. It may be fun, we'll see.

I am glad to be home, I like to have a mini adventure once and a while, but it's always good to get home.

Sooooooo excited for a costume party! I live for costume events. I wish I knew of more people willing to have costume parties all year around, Just good clean fun. Lots of booz, good friends, silly shananigins, what more does a girl need?

I don't know why exactly it's comforting to do so, but I send these things out in to the internet. I will make an effort not to be so hermit-y. It is oddly helpfull to treat these social pages like a diary. Strange, sudo social.... Things realy arn't so bad, in fact I'm ok.

I'm tired. I'm frustrated, I'm working on my issues, I'm a self defeatist, I'm pretty, I'm hungry, I'm not having any fun, I'm going to the gym, I'm working hard in school, I'm not going to have dreams not ful filled. I'm contradictory, I'm young, I'm not all that bad. I'm having a dificult time. I'm just wanting to get some stuff out right now.

money is tight and I think I may be traped at home for a while, no gas$ no fun budget. Hopefully temporary.

I had my surgery on thursday and I think I am doing prety good, I'll post later I gottta go prop my feet up .

This has been a rough week but the short version is that my husband and I are having a rough time right now. again, and for once I feel like I wasn't instigating, I love him and I am worried about his health. we have been making each other nuts as of late, it makes me wonder all sorts of things.

Well If any one is realy interested I have posted about my upcomming surgery in several threds. unfortunatly camping is off and the date has been pushed back to the 5th but at least I will have the Dr. I want and I might have a better chance of loosing some weight before i go in.