smooshfacedlion

I was told once again, and by once again I mean for like the fourth or fifth time in my life, that I look like young Ozzy Osbourne. I really think it just has to be the hair because it's longish and straight and similar to young Ozzy's color. I don't think any of the features are that similar. Once when my hair was really long, like several-inch-ponytail long, about five years ago, I was walking into a Wal-Mart and some guy yells "Hey, Ozzy Osbourne!". That was pretty funny actually. I've also gotten Matthew Sweet a few times, but again I think it's just the hair which is again a similar style and color. I certainly don't have his big pointy nose and caveman-like browridge. Anyway, I like having my hair long. It's like a retractable veil that I can hide behind when I need to but tuck behind my ears when I'm feeling less ugly and shy. Sometimes I wish I had the nerve to just cut it really short and get some sort of style to it. I always cut my own hair because I fear going to have someone else do it. I think to myself that they're laughing at me inside because why should a guy that looks like me actually pay good money in attempt to make himself look better? So I just tell people looking like I'm not making an effort is my chosen style. I cut it neatly and everything and brush it and all, just no real style, just cut it and let it hang.

Anyway, I'm pretty pissed off right now because my company switched to a new insurance company which is allegedly "better". Well, if it's better how come the deductable, co-pays, and presciptions for my mental health care are all significantly higher than they were with the previous company? Not to mention the premiums have caused my paychecks to drop by $14. I mean $14 is no big deal but added to the other stuff it just really ticks me off. One visit to my phychiatrist is now going to cost me the same as four visits did with the other company, and that's after I meet the new deductable which is double what the old one was (and which had already been met). So it looks like the good doctor won't be seeing me anymore than but once a month at or so at the most from now on. All I do is talk about stuff I already know anyway. I'll probably just go for medication management from now on. Though I'm doubtfut about the effectiveness of the drugs I'm taking anyway. I'm on Cymbalta and Ritalin and if they are actually doing anything for me I definitly can't tell with any degree of certainty. At least the sexual side-effects of the Cymbalta seem to be diminishing which is a very good thing.

Wow I think this is the longest journal entry I've ever written. So, I should probably stop before I injure myself.

later,
D.
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