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I'd forgotten what butterflies felt like
and how great goosebumps are
I never want to forget again

We have been sleeping with the lights on
Just about every night
Because we are afraid of what the dark might bring
I know, I know it's just a childish fear
That grows and grows wild in the middle of me
I'm gonna get a new tattoo
Black and stretching around my arm
Like a life that is visible and real
I know, I know...
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ok, how about this for a birthday plan?
very light something to eat
start getting a little fuzzy
Go see the exorcism of emily rose
get a little buzzy and check out a few bars
maybe even end up someplace they allow nakedness
be really buzzy and fuzzy
Lay out and watch some stars
climb something tall and watch some stars
end up where ever...
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Still sitting there with your legs crossed,
not paying attention to me.
If we talk, just curious, would this end up like it always does?
All the wrong I've done.
All the wrong I'll do.
Keeps me from trying.
It keeps me quiet.
Throw out your arms to each side.
It's easier to let things go.
When we talk think what we say: there's questons...
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......
Follow the pipeline I layed it so deep
It flows out my window it flows out to sea
It curls round the mountain it takes up the slack
Book me the right plane I long to nip back
Set up high above the Pyrenees
Set up high on the road of relief

My lies, my lust, my truth, my trust
My league, my school,...
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Growing up in a world of music
Being taught at young pronunciation
Articulation
Ive found all I want
Is someone who can scream at me
At the top of her lungs
Without moving her lips.

My dreams of life and love fade
With my first conscious breath
I can feel you looking at me
I can feel your anticipation
The quick bursts of hot from your nose
I push you away
But you roll right back
Climbing on top of me
In my mouth, all over my face
Why in the morning
Why every morning
Cant you take care of...
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Before the summer fell I already knew
She said I was more than dead
I already knew

Pain, here it comes again
Pain, I just can't take this anymore
Pain, here it comes again
Pain, a knife behind the eyes, a vicious size
Again

I miss my best friend, a growing fear
A lot to sacrifice
Or draw to an end

will you teach a
wretch to live
straighter than a needle)

ask
her
ask
when
(ask and
ask
and ask
again and)ask a
brittle little
person fiddling
in
the
rain

(did you kiss
a girl with nipples
like pink thimbles)

ask
him
ask
who
(ask and
ask
and ask
ago and)ask a
simple
crazy
thing
singing
in the snow

I'm sorry about the sun,
how could I know that you would burn?,
and I'm sorry about the moon,
how could I know that you disapproved,
I'll never make the same mistake,
the next time I create the universe
I'll make sure we communicate at length
but until then . . . better off dead,
a smile on the lips and a hole in the...
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