why is it so hard to find a women to be with. it is not like i live in a small town, a homophopic comunity or hide who i am, so what gives. other than the psycho, intoxicated, needy gals ive met so far i just keep coming up empty handed. until reciently i was horribly worried that this might be the glimpse of the future for me but i have met two amazingly wonderful women. they are both near my age and stable, real, honest gals which i love. one is fairly busy with work and some major challanges/dissatisfaction there and the other is married with kids but in a mutually agreed upon open relationship/swingers. both are beautiful, intelligent, sweet, admirable ladies. now the concern is where and how far we(one or the other or both) go on this adventure.
next topic on my mind is my own work situation-strained, frustrating, complex, uncertaiin. think that is all i want to say about that at the moment, sorry.
i miss my good friends otoki and danielle, it just seems so hard for any of us to connect with oneanother these days, myself included. i want to hear their voices, give them squeezes hello, play pool for hours, sit and talk together, watch silly movies, play twister at 2am, wrestle with dogs, cry, hang out, share what is going on in our lives. i just cannot seem to get beyond the thinking parts of any of the above and time and life slip away in the blink of an eye. i do know some of the sgtc group and have felt welcome there, enjoying some of the many gatherings etc. it is natural, open and stuff, just not like with these two ladies. NOTE: this is not a fyi statement nor a rub it in your face, see there post, just my mind typing its' musings.
i love my niece and nephew totally and completely unconditionally, they are the most precious little people ever. and i am so glad they are living here in MN so i can see them. i am also happy that my sister is close again in location and in my heart.
my dogs are getting older, i think this winter has been hard on them and so i cannot wait for summer when they won't be so arthritic and stuff, for time to bathe and groom them again and not worry about them freezing outside. my kitties are swell too and i love them all bunches.
i hang at the library alot now, playing on the computer on the many cites/groups im in and checking out/renewing dvd's and books ive found there. free, FREE dvd check out for a week per movie, current releases and some indi stuff, pbs docum. and off the wall comedy, foriegn stuff, history films, educational, informative, cultural, and popular films.
so i guess that about sums it up in a nut shell for now.
to anyone who reads this, thank you, and if i dont know you please reach out and say hi so we can be better aquainted.
take care and sweet dreams
D.
next topic on my mind is my own work situation-strained, frustrating, complex, uncertaiin. think that is all i want to say about that at the moment, sorry.
i miss my good friends otoki and danielle, it just seems so hard for any of us to connect with oneanother these days, myself included. i want to hear their voices, give them squeezes hello, play pool for hours, sit and talk together, watch silly movies, play twister at 2am, wrestle with dogs, cry, hang out, share what is going on in our lives. i just cannot seem to get beyond the thinking parts of any of the above and time and life slip away in the blink of an eye. i do know some of the sgtc group and have felt welcome there, enjoying some of the many gatherings etc. it is natural, open and stuff, just not like with these two ladies. NOTE: this is not a fyi statement nor a rub it in your face, see there post, just my mind typing its' musings.
i love my niece and nephew totally and completely unconditionally, they are the most precious little people ever. and i am so glad they are living here in MN so i can see them. i am also happy that my sister is close again in location and in my heart.
my dogs are getting older, i think this winter has been hard on them and so i cannot wait for summer when they won't be so arthritic and stuff, for time to bathe and groom them again and not worry about them freezing outside. my kitties are swell too and i love them all bunches.
i hang at the library alot now, playing on the computer on the many cites/groups im in and checking out/renewing dvd's and books ive found there. free, FREE dvd check out for a week per movie, current releases and some indi stuff, pbs docum. and off the wall comedy, foriegn stuff, history films, educational, informative, cultural, and popular films.
so i guess that about sums it up in a nut shell for now.
to anyone who reads this, thank you, and if i dont know you please reach out and say hi so we can be better aquainted.
take care and sweet dreams
D.