I would zone out when I first listened to this album and would actually skip it when it came out.
After I moved back and my relationship started to fall apart other things seemed to start crumbling around me as I to look at them(only a perspective but that is hard to see when in that state) . The course of the next 3 years from that point changed everything and what I thought was my normality. I forced myself to go back through my life to try and figure out why things inside me were so locked and guarded. Why when things bad happened I would become distant and cold only to have it hit me way later when it made no sense. I would see others cry and allow the grief of things to flow and I would just be wondering why I didnt feel that while I would be looking past everything like I was trying to pierce through realities constructs with focus on something I couldnt see.
So one night I was on one of my late night walks. I was listening to this album and this song came one when this song came on in my headphones and the line " In many ways Im the burden, that divides us from the light. In many ways you're the halo, that keeps my spirit alive." I stopped in one of these back allies it hit me in my head and heart. I began to walk hard and fast as I started to lose composure. I love In Flames and at a later point will list off some of the favorites but this one is for when I go away in my head while I fight to be "present" instead of far ahead or behind. Easily one of the lighter songs they have made. They were my gateway to melodic death metal and arguably one of the early bands in this sub genre.
Tell me which side I'm on
Approaching constant failure
Tell me which side I'm on
(Who's friend or foe?)
Approaching constant failure
Between love and hate
Which path to follow?
How can I keep balance in this race?
Come faith, I'm dying (slowly)
In many ways I'm the burden that devides us from the light
In many ways you're the halo that keeps my spirit alive
Temptation
Play the good or evil part
With me, you evoke the dark
Erase the free will and watch me heal
Tell me which side I'm on
Approaching constant failure
Between love and hate
Which path to follow?
How can I keep balance in this race?
Come faith, I'm dying...
Amused by the trials and tribulations
If I survive I fly from here
But as the chosen pessimist
I carve my name in stone
I carve my name in stone
Amused by the trials and tribulations
If I survive I fly from here
How can I keep balance in this race?
Come faith I'm dying...
Be well and be good.
The Michael
