im trying to make it through my day and hold back my tears. i didn't think losing him would make such an impact on me.. but it has. everything is different without him near me. i miss his meow... i miss everything.. and today, i held frank back's hand as he put down his cat Diablo. that man is amazing and we cried together for both of our losses.
i get to pick up batman's ashes tomorrow morning. i'm looking forward to being able to see him, and have his ora near me everyday. i just want my baby home. thats all.
i had all these plans, and all these plans are slowly changing. dana point is this weekend.. all weekend, i hope i see michelle... i miss her, seeing as she is my future wife and everything
but yeah, i think this weekend is a lot of self realization.
im editting this journal entry because i simply have too.. i have so much more to say, and damnit, this is my journal.. and i do whatever the fuck i want too. bitches
ok.. maybe not. haha..
ive closed the book on a couple chapters today... some were planned, and some well, weren't really planned. i did learn plenty about myself tonight. listening to the phone and looking at my best friend make silly faces and dance around listening to some awesome "tiffany" tracks.. made me look at my surroundings and really make some decisions. *flex flex* i also learned that among the many things i hate about people.. there is a bigger list that is formed. i also learned there is a lot of things that i hate about myself, but not enough hate to change them, because i'm fucking cool. so get the hell off me.
"hey did you just call me a fag!?"
i looked at josephine a few minutes ago, and she asked "dude... negro are you cool with all of this?"... i looked at her and thought... then said... "dude.. did you just call me negro?" shows how much i care about my own personal well being, right? ha ha.. im lame. but then i thought a little more for a second and said.. "rewind.. im perfect right now actually. i feel like there is clean air around me and the beauty around me is just growing.. oh yeah, and i want some ketchup." hah.. im lame
so whatever
who is the new owner of an infiniti g35?
i am.
eat your heart out.
i really dont know what else to say, i need to keep packing... her words are drunken
her lips are intoxicating
and i, sir... am the drunkard that is foolish enough to sip her drink.
xoxox
i get to pick up batman's ashes tomorrow morning. i'm looking forward to being able to see him, and have his ora near me everyday. i just want my baby home. thats all.
i had all these plans, and all these plans are slowly changing. dana point is this weekend.. all weekend, i hope i see michelle... i miss her, seeing as she is my future wife and everything
but yeah, i think this weekend is a lot of self realization.
im editting this journal entry because i simply have too.. i have so much more to say, and damnit, this is my journal.. and i do whatever the fuck i want too. bitches
ok.. maybe not. haha..
ive closed the book on a couple chapters today... some were planned, and some well, weren't really planned. i did learn plenty about myself tonight. listening to the phone and looking at my best friend make silly faces and dance around listening to some awesome "tiffany" tracks.. made me look at my surroundings and really make some decisions. *flex flex* i also learned that among the many things i hate about people.. there is a bigger list that is formed. i also learned there is a lot of things that i hate about myself, but not enough hate to change them, because i'm fucking cool. so get the hell off me.
"hey did you just call me a fag!?"
i looked at josephine a few minutes ago, and she asked "dude... negro are you cool with all of this?"... i looked at her and thought... then said... "dude.. did you just call me negro?" shows how much i care about my own personal well being, right? ha ha.. im lame. but then i thought a little more for a second and said.. "rewind.. im perfect right now actually. i feel like there is clean air around me and the beauty around me is just growing.. oh yeah, and i want some ketchup." hah.. im lame
so whatever
who is the new owner of an infiniti g35?
i am.
eat your heart out.
i really dont know what else to say, i need to keep packing... her words are drunken
her lips are intoxicating
and i, sir... am the drunkard that is foolish enough to sip her drink.
xoxox
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twztdchik:
WAIT did you do the Tiffany with someone else 
laid_to_rest:
wow, an infinit g35 huh? i'll race you anyday girl! import racing at it's best right here babydoll!