slipinsin

Drunk! Fifth night in a row. Third night out of five that I've also driven while seriously intoxicated, but I've not hit anyone or anything, so no problem. Not a normal thing for me to do. Two nights were spent going out with a girl who thinks nothing more of me than a friend. I tried to change her thoughts on me, but to no avail. I'm not a "bad-boy", I'm a "nice guy", and she likes bad boys. I'm the type of guy a girl like her would marry, later in life. But now, while she's young and hot, I don't get to touch her. Fuck that. So, I treat you well, but I'm not good enough for you to fuck, until seven or eight years from now, when you've had twenty other cocks inside of you and your tits are starting to sag and your ass isn't so tight? But you'll want me then. Because the "bad boys" will be poor, having never done shit with themselves but be "bad" (what the fuck does that mean anyway?), and I won't be. I'll have a life when I'm in my 30's, because I gave a shit about things like grades and my future when I was in my 20's. By your reasoning, then I can touch you. Then I can get you naked and take my place behind every other guy who had you when I wanted you. Fuck you, you fucking whore. What makes you think I'll still want you then? Why should I settle for a used-up slut when I could be fucking an 18-year-old stripper, who -just like you- would only care about me for my "earning potential", or some such bullshit. (And when she's 19, out the fucking door!) You had your chance with me now, and you passed it up... Forever.

I am so fed up with women... Fuck all of you! Every one of you who's looked at me and smiled, not in a friendly, "I think he's cute" way, but instead thinking "what a dork, I'd never touch him". Am I so worthless to all of you? Am I so easy to look past, to shrug-off, to not care about, to ignore? I guess so...

Well, as of this moment, in my mind, and in my heart, all of you are, too...

Maybe...

Probably not...

But for now, while I'm drunk and sullen, yes...