I think my medicine is beginning to get to me. My lips and eyes are constantly dry. I keep putting drops in my eyes so my contacts don't get stuck to my eyeballs, but they only help for so long. I can't wear my glasses because I have no depth perception with them on. I feel like at any moment during the day I'm going to start crying. I miss him so much my guts feel like they've been turned inside out. Haven't called because I'm afraid I'll start crying, and that would be stupid.
This new guy I met makes me feel like all the others have - tired. Why does the prospect of a romantic relationship with a perfectly nice guy make me feel like never leaving my house again? I just want to go to sleep and never have to wake up. Maybe it's just the medicine talking. But I've always felt like this, about any potential boyfriend.
He talks too much. Doesn't shut up. Doesn't appear to have anything particularly interesting to say. Seems to think he knows a lot about everything. Today started talking about Jewish people. I told him I'm Jewish, and he kept right on talking as if he knows more about it than I do. What the fuck? I've known him for a couple of days, spent a few hours with him, and he thinks he knows more about everything than I do. Am I supposed to find this attractive? Am I supposed to sit quietly while he blathers on about shit I don't care about, and pretend I'm interested? Am I supposed to sit quietly while he talks on about something that I already know a lot about, pretending that all the information he's imparting to me is new? Fuck that, I'd rather be single.
This new guy I met makes me feel like all the others have - tired. Why does the prospect of a romantic relationship with a perfectly nice guy make me feel like never leaving my house again? I just want to go to sleep and never have to wake up. Maybe it's just the medicine talking. But I've always felt like this, about any potential boyfriend.
He talks too much. Doesn't shut up. Doesn't appear to have anything particularly interesting to say. Seems to think he knows a lot about everything. Today started talking about Jewish people. I told him I'm Jewish, and he kept right on talking as if he knows more about it than I do. What the fuck? I've known him for a couple of days, spent a few hours with him, and he thinks he knows more about everything than I do. Am I supposed to find this attractive? Am I supposed to sit quietly while he blathers on about shit I don't care about, and pretend I'm interested? Am I supposed to sit quietly while he talks on about something that I already know a lot about, pretending that all the information he's imparting to me is new? Fuck that, I'd rather be single.
boys can do that to a girl, it happens, any relationship ive ever had makes me feel very very tired too...but thats how it goes I guess....if you dont want this guy to talk anymore you should talk a lot...not let him talk...then when he asks what the hell, you tell him.....might work?
Anyway feel better
~R