So, this is new for me. I'm not a believer in any type of faith, but I do believe that your thoughts and energy are projected out into the world around you. My grandmother has recently fallen ill. Years of smoking cigarettes and drinking will do that to you. She's bedridden, and I'm the only one who is here to take care of her. The rest of our family on her side is either to elderly or to far away. I'm her only blood relative grandchild, and I've never had to take care of anyone except for myself before. I'm having a really hard time keeping my head on straight. I'm doing the best I can, but I still feel like it isn't enough. There's so much to do. Her house was absolutely filthy, her dog wasn't being cared for properly, bills are stacked to the ceiling because she just stopped caring, and she wasn't eating healthy by any means. She's showing early signs of dementia and the entire situation is just scary. I have to take her to the hospital on Thursday for a follow up appointment and hopefully we get good news. To make matters worse, my parents are 800 miles away in their home in Georgia, and my dad just had to have reconstructive esophageal surgery. So my mom is freaking out because she can only do so much for him, and I can only do so much for my grandmother, and we're all separated. It's just been an all around mess in my life lately, and I can't be there for everyone that I'd like to be there for. I can feel myself slowly losing my mind. Anyways, all I'm asking for is good vibes to be sent my way and to keep good thoughts for us so they can be projected into this world. I know no one actually knows me, but this community is so uplifting and so positive, I felt like it was the one place I could turn to. I hope all you lovely people are doing well for yourselves! I'll keep the good vibes up as best as I can. Thanks to all who even take the time to read this, and if you're feeling down, just know there are people who love you.
