slannyfaced

I keep having dreams about her. It's really not making this any easier. I miss her so much.
The dreams are all different, but basically the same. She's dead, but I can still call her on the phone and even see her sometimes. Shitty thing is I always try to call her and can never find her number or she'll call me and I wanot get to the phone in time. I miss her so much.

I don't know if I can take much more of this...

Why did life have to deal such a shitty hand to such a sweet girl.
Why did life have to leave me here to deal with it.
Why does it have to be this way.

There should be second chances.
If soemone cries and misses someone enough they should be able to come back.
I'll have to take that up with God when I get there I guess...