I started my journey in the SG world on tumblr. I would see Suicide Girls be posted and thought that they were the coolest, hottest, prettiest people in the world. Girls like @radeo, @gogo & @bully were my mega crushes. The idea of being an SG sounded awesome but not in the realm of possibility. Those girls were on another level.
I went to an art highschool and used women as reference photos for my art heavily. When I was 18 and a senior, I painted Gogo in my free time and handed it in for an extracurricular project in art class. My teacher told me how much he liked it but he couldn’t accept it because of the subject matter. That was the beginning of me saying “fuck the normal standards of beauty” and I kinda never looked back.
Here is the painting of Gogo I handed in for school ~
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I graduated and life continued after highschool. Still on tumblr, still painting women and making art.
Oct 2013 I went to New York Comic Con, some SGs had a meet and greet…. Safe to say I was a mega baby then and fangirled so hard lol. 18 year old me DIED and went to heaven.
shortly after comic con I went to the Blackheart Burlesque for the first time in Philly (by myself too, I was so nervous LOL) and met @lua & Jessa again!
Around this time I was hanging out with friends who were starting on their photography journey. We would all hang out and take photos and modelling became a reality for me.
Photo from Dec 2013
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So I was finally modelling, and still making art. I had joined the SG site as a hopeful by the end of 2013. When 2014 rolled around I had a set in queue and was heavily making art of SGs.
@bixton
@neptune & @jennings
@milloux
@mendacia
@gogo
@vorpal
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My first hopeful set came out Jan 2015, shout out to those who remember that one lol
“Come as you Are” came out and was bought right before my 20th birthday, making me an official SG! I was so happy, it meant the absolute world to me.
In the years following I met so many girls, shot with many photographers and continued to make art.
My next set to be bought was “Spire” in 2016 with the amazing @lady.
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By the end of 2016 I had went full time on twitch and was partnered. I put modelling on the back burner and fully focused on my art.
Now a bunch of years have passed, a lot has happened and changed but the one thing that has stayed consistent is my love for modelling and art. I started cosplaying which is a new thing I’m so excited I can bring to SG now too! I’m so happy to be back and I’m really excited for my next set and whatever else 2022 will bring us.
Thank you Suicide Girls for being here for me through whatever the heck life brings. Happy 20th birthday! 💕
