skyhighmonkey

"i'f you're a bird, i'm a bird" ..remix

Sometimes its hard to believe what you see, so you have to trust the world behind your eyes.

There is so much beauty in the breakdown. It seems you have to be destroyed to finally feel alive.

Today I got destroyed.

Through tear stained sobs I realized I am more alive then i have been in a very long time.
Maybe it's okay to get the occasional knife through your heart. Maybe it's okay to have a world come crashing down now and again. This way, it keeps you grounded. this way it leaves room for new worlds to form.

Do i regret what i have done? Not in the least.
I had done everything in my power to get what i had wanted.
But chasing after you grows tiring.
But late night confessions only go so far until reality sets in.
But your beauty dims with every wound you create.


Letting you go is going to be one of the hardest decisions i will have to make because for so long you were like an answered prayer, an uncontrollable reflex. an obsession.


but today you destroyed me. every inch. every breath.

is that what i am to you? a waste?


i cant ever hate you. i dont want to hate you. but sometimes i wish you could disappear from my mind.
it's like im drawn to you and im this masochistic lamb setting myself up for slaughter every time i say your stupid name.



if i could stop myself from thinking, i'd relish in the silence. because that silence would save me.


i dont expect anybody to know who or what i am talking about.
im just rambling.


now, its time to drink.