skurvee

Once you have lost all sense of self discipline, how do you get it back?
Every time I think of some bad habits I want to change and promise myself I'll do better the next day, the next week, the next time, and then in the end I just don't want to put in the effort and I empty that bag of candy, smoke that joint and postpone that visit to the gym,
I am at a point where I am almost convinced that I can't do it anymore.
Ofcourse, I have a lot lot on my mind, still some work left on my BA, applied for a MA, have to apply for a job in theatre education, will start a sowing course next week, am going forward and backward between a little bit heartbroken and a lot. I do so well, but I have to get rid of a few of those bad habits that are getting a tad out of hand now and I am just a weak little bitch.