Procrastinating; procrastinating.
My relationship with my best friend is again like it should be, which makes me happy.
Also, there are too many exboyfriends in my life. I used to be able to say "my ex" and we all knew who I meant, namely the one who was there for years, on and off. Now there's another one, from this summer, and it gets all complicated.
And this friday the up and coming new ex (joking!) will come and I will cook for him, in a lame attempt to get laid. Another joke, with a wink: i really like the guy and taking things slow is good, it's just that I haven't had PROPER sex since may (with the ex, with the other ex it was kinda shitty, and frustrating) and I am ever so horny.
Now: study!
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I wanted to edit this because I have been so confused lately. I haven't and will not be able to save the amount of money I counted on so the trip to India might be in danger, but I'll probably go 2 months instead of more. Also the job I was kinda counting on when I decided to stay in Holland is not available yet when I come back from India cuz the venue I could work in won't open in march but instead in september. Also.. you already feel my doubts.. I am not too sure I wanted to leave for Italy, because I basically make shit money, I mean, it's enough but it's shit if you have to pay for your house at home. Also i am not sure if I could work in Italy, 'cause you find out where you're placed last minute. And third I'll probably not get age group I want to work with again because the number of campsites with that kids' club has reduced tremendously. I'm thinking about staying here and find a job with my fresh BA degree in a museum, make some money and make my house look better. But if I can't find a job with my degree I'll end up slaving in a restaurant again for a shit pay., and a shit social life. Rrraaaaaaahhhh. I always wanted to leave Holland as long as I could, because I was so unhappy in this country, but now that I am finding a bit of a happy place here, the opportunities abroad don't seem as tempting as they were. And that's okay, it just makes me wonder, what I should do in those months free from uni.
Maybe I shouldn't bitch. It's a luxury problem right?
My relationship with my best friend is again like it should be, which makes me happy.
Also, there are too many exboyfriends in my life. I used to be able to say "my ex" and we all knew who I meant, namely the one who was there for years, on and off. Now there's another one, from this summer, and it gets all complicated.
And this friday the up and coming new ex (joking!) will come and I will cook for him, in a lame attempt to get laid. Another joke, with a wink: i really like the guy and taking things slow is good, it's just that I haven't had PROPER sex since may (with the ex, with the other ex it was kinda shitty, and frustrating) and I am ever so horny.
Now: study!
[edit]
I wanted to edit this because I have been so confused lately. I haven't and will not be able to save the amount of money I counted on so the trip to India might be in danger, but I'll probably go 2 months instead of more. Also the job I was kinda counting on when I decided to stay in Holland is not available yet when I come back from India cuz the venue I could work in won't open in march but instead in september. Also.. you already feel my doubts.. I am not too sure I wanted to leave for Italy, because I basically make shit money, I mean, it's enough but it's shit if you have to pay for your house at home. Also i am not sure if I could work in Italy, 'cause you find out where you're placed last minute. And third I'll probably not get age group I want to work with again because the number of campsites with that kids' club has reduced tremendously. I'm thinking about staying here and find a job with my fresh BA degree in a museum, make some money and make my house look better. But if I can't find a job with my degree I'll end up slaving in a restaurant again for a shit pay., and a shit social life. Rrraaaaaaahhhh. I always wanted to leave Holland as long as I could, because I was so unhappy in this country, but now that I am finding a bit of a happy place here, the opportunities abroad don't seem as tempting as they were. And that's okay, it just makes me wonder, what I should do in those months free from uni.
Maybe I shouldn't bitch. It's a luxury problem right?
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(heb net mn set ingestuurd, aaah)
xxx!
Het was best een leuke avond, wat eigenlijk helemaal niet zo bijzonder was, werd toch nog erg gezellig omdat er erg veel bekenden waren en omdat ik opeens de kolder in mijn kop kreeg en ineens mee ging 'zingen' in de microfoon tijdens AFN, iets wat ik anders echt nooit doe!
Komende week heb ik het erg druk, ik ga even kijken of ik ergens misschien een gaatje heb want wat drinken lijkt me erg gezellie!