so i found out some disturbin' shit.
my best friend of 5-6 years , hearing impaired just like me...
whom lives 10 minutes from me. Came by, i was either sleepin or at work.
I dont even know. Says he came by, to see if i was home. As he was leaving,
some black guy and two white wiggers jumped him outside of my apartment building.
i hadn't spoken to him in a week, mainly because ive been busy trying to make ends meet.
When i did see him last night, he had two black eyes, and was strapped with a gun (permit owned of course).
Now i feel like fucking people up.
He has only about a year or two left to live. That was alot to to take in when he told me, but not only for me, but for him as well.
These days i feel a tad vunerable (fuck the spelling ), at the same time full of rage.
I dont know how much more shit can be added onto my own pile of SHIT.
Im lucky i didnt get evicted yet. Although, i dont feel that much safer around here anymore, even though ive
never had any problems whatsoever. Nobody fucks with me.
Maybe thats because i look too hardkore, whatever.
Im constantly trying to figure out how to get myself out of this fuckhole of a mess im in.
And im desperately wanting to move.
These people are far more fucked up in the head than anyone thinks.
Sure they appear normal and self kept.. but, they carry themselves like retards.
im so sick of being surrounded by that.
The negativity, the bullshit.
No wonder nobody ever really visits me here.
No wonder im by myself all the goddamn time.
I dont expect sympathy... and not to come off as an asshole but the "i wish i could help..."
doesnt really ...uh help.
I dont know what to do anymore.
The more i feel stressed out the more i feel like im falling down and not giving a fuck about whats going on.
I dont understand why people have to be the way they are, i dont get why life has to suck this much.
The ignorance...
I fucking hate stupid people.
my best friend of 5-6 years , hearing impaired just like me...
whom lives 10 minutes from me. Came by, i was either sleepin or at work.
I dont even know. Says he came by, to see if i was home. As he was leaving,
some black guy and two white wiggers jumped him outside of my apartment building.
i hadn't spoken to him in a week, mainly because ive been busy trying to make ends meet.
When i did see him last night, he had two black eyes, and was strapped with a gun (permit owned of course).
Now i feel like fucking people up.
He has only about a year or two left to live. That was alot to to take in when he told me, but not only for me, but for him as well.
These days i feel a tad vunerable (fuck the spelling ), at the same time full of rage.
I dont know how much more shit can be added onto my own pile of SHIT.
Im lucky i didnt get evicted yet. Although, i dont feel that much safer around here anymore, even though ive
never had any problems whatsoever. Nobody fucks with me.
Maybe thats because i look too hardkore, whatever.
Im constantly trying to figure out how to get myself out of this fuckhole of a mess im in.
And im desperately wanting to move.
These people are far more fucked up in the head than anyone thinks.
Sure they appear normal and self kept.. but, they carry themselves like retards.
im so sick of being surrounded by that.
The negativity, the bullshit.
No wonder nobody ever really visits me here.
No wonder im by myself all the goddamn time.
I dont expect sympathy... and not to come off as an asshole but the "i wish i could help..."
doesnt really ...uh help.
I dont know what to do anymore.
The more i feel stressed out the more i feel like im falling down and not giving a fuck about whats going on.
I dont understand why people have to be the way they are, i dont get why life has to suck this much.
The ignorance...
I fucking hate stupid people.
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
faye:
That's fucking BULLSHIT! - give him huggs for me
kokeshi:
go study for your italian class.