Thank you for the love. Sometimes it's good to know you're not the only one.
Doing much better today; no longer feeling sorry for myself. Now I'm more angry than anything, but they'll never know. It's not really that big of a deal. I mean it is because it makes me feel like shit, but in the great scheme of things I would rather just ignore it. Girls are so fucking caddy and it just wouldn't be worth it. I felt like a complete stranger at the bar where I work last night.The only bartender who paid any attention to me at all without being a dick about it was the only male bartender we have. If you knew all the things I wanted to say to them........ to just go off for once........ to stop listening to my anger in my head........ to just let them know I can see right through them and it isn't going to work. I'm prettier than you. I'm smarter than you and sucks for you I'm stealing your spotlight. Get over it. I'm just me. That's all I can be. Nothing more. Don't give me shit for being who I am. People don't grow up and jealousy never goes away. I sware. But work will never see me vent, will never see this side of me.
There are only a few ways to make and see me angry. Picking on me, won't do it. Just short of stabbing me with a knife will. That's how tolerant I am. However it does build. I'll get to that in a sec.
If I catch you abusing an animal or an individual you will feel pain. And nothing you could do to me would make it stop.
So getting back to needing a release for everything that is pent up. Masturbation doesn't it. Nice, sweet sex doesn't do it. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a freak all the time. But I think I understand what the Secretary is all about and thetrainingofo.com. If you haven't seen The Secretary, I highly suggest you buy it. S&M in a very classy way. S&M or D&S is not about guilt as some people may think. There's more to it than meets the eye. The psychology of it is interesting and complex. I love it. Never done it (unfortunately). But I think I need that release.
I almost forgot, Wit and I are planning a sushi set together. We're breaking the rules seeing as how I'm a Hopeful and she's a Suicidegirl. We don't care. And it's going to be fun. We'll keep you posted.
Thank you to the friends I've met on here. I enjoy reading your blogs especially when it's something you wouldn't talk about in "polite" company.
Have a great day y'all. Mua!
Doing much better today; no longer feeling sorry for myself. Now I'm more angry than anything, but they'll never know. It's not really that big of a deal. I mean it is because it makes me feel like shit, but in the great scheme of things I would rather just ignore it. Girls are so fucking caddy and it just wouldn't be worth it. I felt like a complete stranger at the bar where I work last night.The only bartender who paid any attention to me at all without being a dick about it was the only male bartender we have. If you knew all the things I wanted to say to them........ to just go off for once........ to stop listening to my anger in my head........ to just let them know I can see right through them and it isn't going to work. I'm prettier than you. I'm smarter than you and sucks for you I'm stealing your spotlight. Get over it. I'm just me. That's all I can be. Nothing more. Don't give me shit for being who I am. People don't grow up and jealousy never goes away. I sware. But work will never see me vent, will never see this side of me.
There are only a few ways to make and see me angry. Picking on me, won't do it. Just short of stabbing me with a knife will. That's how tolerant I am. However it does build. I'll get to that in a sec.
If I catch you abusing an animal or an individual you will feel pain. And nothing you could do to me would make it stop.
So getting back to needing a release for everything that is pent up. Masturbation doesn't it. Nice, sweet sex doesn't do it. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a freak all the time. But I think I understand what the Secretary is all about and thetrainingofo.com. If you haven't seen The Secretary, I highly suggest you buy it. S&M in a very classy way. S&M or D&S is not about guilt as some people may think. There's more to it than meets the eye. The psychology of it is interesting and complex. I love it. Never done it (unfortunately). But I think I need that release.
I almost forgot, Wit and I are planning a sushi set together. We're breaking the rules seeing as how I'm a Hopeful and she's a Suicidegirl. We don't care. And it's going to be fun. We'll keep you posted.
Thank you to the friends I've met on here. I enjoy reading your blogs especially when it's something you wouldn't talk about in "polite" company.
Have a great day y'all. Mua!
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micamars:
Can't wait for the set with Wit, she's on my friends list too and is gorgeous. You two together would be phenominal. Sorry to hear your getting crap at your work. Women can be jealous backstabbing bitches as easy as breathing sometimes. Wish I could give you a big hug, make ya feel okay if only for a few moments. Keep your chin up and know that people care about you. Mike
micamars:
I checked out that site you wrote about, that's some pretty extreme things.