skipzero

So my computer's been down for the last 2 days defragging.... JEEZ, I thought I was gonna go insane! Im completely miserable now. Ive been thinkin about her for the last week and cant get her off my mind for more than an hour at a time. seeing her again didnt help. and hopefully that wont happen again for a while.

I still miss her, even after the shit that went down. "being drunk is not an excuse!" she'd always tell me.... but whatever.

There were GREAT times we had. really special times too, where I wished they would never end. I dont know where or how things got so fucked up and why Im even writting this now, but I guess its good.

Im totally miserable.... Im still not working and the temp agency hasnt given me a new assignment, hopefully next week, I guess....

I realy wish I could just crawl under a blanket and wait till my heart is a little more perpared for the outside world and all the hurt it brings, inevitably... I wish we could at least talk. like we use to, where nothing really mattered, just her and I... About how it was us against the world and we were gonna do all these things.....


They say time heals all wounds.... I wish my life had a fast forward button about now so I wouldnt still be so fucked up and could get on with shit....

anyway........