skinnykeychain

I had a fun but very stressful weekend. For the first time in my life I actually want to move in with my friends. I just know that I can't afford it right now. But I think it's time that I just lived a different lifestyle.

I've reached a cross road in my life and I'm not sure how to take it. I love Melissa and her Daughter but I know it's going to be a very long time before she's ready to actually have a relationship. We've stopped with the fooling around because it was messing with my head to much. We're honest about our feelings and we both care for each other a lot. She's just not in a place where she can give me back what I give her. She already feels like she's not as good of a friend as she should be.

So with that I'm trying to grip and move on in a way. I want a family, I want to stop the dating madness, and I'm kinda old fashioned in a weird kinky kinda way. So it's really appealing to think things will work out for us in the end. But I need to put certain feelings on the shelf if possible. So we'll see how that goes.
I need to start dating again, but I still don't have that much of a drive. I need to meet someone who is worth 5secs of my time... instead of a bunch of losers. But how is that going to happen?

Oh well!

I just sent Dylan a message asking him if I could buy him a beer sometime. I was letting my rage take the best of me. I just really want to break his fucking head and that's not toooo cool. So I want to tell him how I feel where I'm at, and what he can expect from me.

We'll see how it goes...