Well I haven't done the diary thing recently but I figured I would start again and see if anyone cares about my little self in this gigantic world.
Right now I feel like one of the biggest jerks in the world. I met this girl online the other day. WOW! That's one way to put how I felt after we talked for 5 hours between online and the phone. She is one of the most amazing girls I have ever met. Needless to say I fell in love with her almost instantly. Now I know what you might say, "How do you love someone the first time you talk with them?" Well she is the perfect girl for me. Has a personality that is wonderful, funny, and she is so giving. She told me about how every christmas her and her parents give away toys to needy kids or donate food to those that can't afford it. That is something I wish I could do but I have never really been able to afford it. But anyways this girl is perfect!
So on to my mistake. I told her I would get online sometime between 11 and 12 after work. I wait tables so sometimes it can be later then I expected. Well this night I didn't get done until 12. The drive home is about a half hour, so I knew I was going to be a little late. Well my damn roommate, who's truck we were driving, wanted to have a few drinks so he could get to bed. Well I said aslong as we were home by one. Well one turned out to be 2:30 and I was hoping she was still one. Well she had been on since 8 waiting for me to get on. I feel so bad that I wasn't there to talk to her. It was the only thing I wanted to do all day. I wanted to tell her that I started writing a song for her, I am sorta musically inclined, and tell her what I had wrote so far. So now I feel like sh*t and want nothing more then to do anything to make up for my mistake.
Right now I feel like one of the biggest jerks in the world. I met this girl online the other day. WOW! That's one way to put how I felt after we talked for 5 hours between online and the phone. She is one of the most amazing girls I have ever met. Needless to say I fell in love with her almost instantly. Now I know what you might say, "How do you love someone the first time you talk with them?" Well she is the perfect girl for me. Has a personality that is wonderful, funny, and she is so giving. She told me about how every christmas her and her parents give away toys to needy kids or donate food to those that can't afford it. That is something I wish I could do but I have never really been able to afford it. But anyways this girl is perfect!
So on to my mistake. I told her I would get online sometime between 11 and 12 after work. I wait tables so sometimes it can be later then I expected. Well this night I didn't get done until 12. The drive home is about a half hour, so I knew I was going to be a little late. Well my damn roommate, who's truck we were driving, wanted to have a few drinks so he could get to bed. Well I said aslong as we were home by one. Well one turned out to be 2:30 and I was hoping she was still one. Well she had been on since 8 waiting for me to get on. I feel so bad that I wasn't there to talk to her. It was the only thing I wanted to do all day. I wanted to tell her that I started writing a song for her, I am sorta musically inclined, and tell her what I had wrote so far. So now I feel like sh*t and want nothing more then to do anything to make up for my mistake.