skatman

i have been getting the worst migraines lately. last night one lasted almost all night. i couldnt even get to sleep till late. i have one right now but its not as bad as the one last night, that one made me crazy, i couldnt even open my eyes. i finally opened one of my eyes to watch " the wire" on HBO. i love that show, its pretty raw and in depth. basically its a realistic cop show but instead of being just cop-sided it tells both stories really well. this one scene last night was really profound. it burned into my brian, i will never forget it. half of the story takes place in the baltimore projects as these 16 year old teenagers deal up rocks for this dealer that the cops are trying to arrest. well, its the last episode and this kid, you get close to because he is a good kid and is trying to get clean, comes back from his grandmas house in the country and tries to get back into the "game". his boy tells him that there is a price on his head because they think hes a rat ( he's not) and to go somewhere else. he doesnt and his good friend that he grew up with ends up killing him. that whole scene they are all crying while the gun is being pointed at the kid and you think he's not going to get shot and then boom. anyways its fucked up and it really took me. it made me think if i was in that situation of living in poverty and it came to killing my buddy i grew up with just to make it and get paid. damn. i dont think i could have killed that kid though. he was a good kid and was well liked. soft spoken and did what he had to do to live. just because they thought he was a rat and was soft. damn. it blows my mind that this shit really happens. all because of the "game". well, that was my rant.