Well last night I did everything that I could. For some reason I don't think it matters. I had to though for my sake. My mind has been acting up lately. When things are getting to me I won't be able to think too well. I want things to be simple. I want things to work out. I want things to actually work out for me for once. Regardless, some people have no sense of honor or brotherhood. I don't fight out of anger, but if I substitute anger for frustration, I think I know someone that I would like to have help me "relieve my frustrations." At least I have a few people on my side who think I am the better man for once. While that is no consolation to what I would have really liked... It is a little encouraging to know it is availiable.
5 months that I decide to stay out of the scene. Then the span of 3 weeks that I try to get something going, I have to have someone who I considered a friend block me. Argh.
On another note, I think my eye is scratched... as it gets really irritated sometimes, and I don't scratch it or anything. My appetite (while I do want to eat) has been extremely lowered.
I am in a "Hackers" mood. If only it were that easy. I would take my 28.8 modem here... turn the tables on those who are out to ruin my days... make the pool leak,expose a multimillion dollar scam and with my friends save the day, then win Kate over, after a little friendly competition.
Update: Oh and I am currently listening to Voodoo People again...
Well I just talked to her over email... since she couldn't just meet up with me and do it in person the night before. I guess things are working out a little bit. It calms my mind a little bit, but I still feel it would be awesome to pull a freaking Rick Hunter (macross), strip off my Publix uniform and be like (in a dramatic tone)... well since you can't date Publix employees, then I am quitting the "federation". However my common sense is stopping me, as I know it should. Moreover, I don't know her too well, we don't have that big of a history... if it were different I could possibly do it. I have been taking a lot more action than I have in the past lately.
She figures no tension is the best way to go about things. I agree with her rationality. She wants things to be cool between all of us, said she was sorry for how things are going down, but I am not really upset with her I guess. Call me dumb, call me blind, it won't change anything. If I got a sincere apology from someone else it would be pretty nice. Then again so would be an old medievil duel type of dealy.
It's good to know that she trusts me, I am just afraid of driving myself into a ditch with this. She said she has to get to know me outside of work better, and I am all for that. Oh well... til next time kiddos.... Listen to prodigy and stay in school.
My god... I am starting to hate myself. This journal was not made to be like this. It was made to keep track of events and stuff, that was interesting.... not to be a teenie bopper bandwagon craze. I feel stupid about this... but then again, I usually do write when I am upset, since my guitar is at my friends, and such.
I am such a whiny baby. I need a punching bag. Steel poles at work help a little.
5 months that I decide to stay out of the scene. Then the span of 3 weeks that I try to get something going, I have to have someone who I considered a friend block me. Argh.
On another note, I think my eye is scratched... as it gets really irritated sometimes, and I don't scratch it or anything. My appetite (while I do want to eat) has been extremely lowered.
I am in a "Hackers" mood. If only it were that easy. I would take my 28.8 modem here... turn the tables on those who are out to ruin my days... make the pool leak,expose a multimillion dollar scam and with my friends save the day, then win Kate over, after a little friendly competition.
Update: Oh and I am currently listening to Voodoo People again...
Well I just talked to her over email... since she couldn't just meet up with me and do it in person the night before. I guess things are working out a little bit. It calms my mind a little bit, but I still feel it would be awesome to pull a freaking Rick Hunter (macross), strip off my Publix uniform and be like (in a dramatic tone)... well since you can't date Publix employees, then I am quitting the "federation". However my common sense is stopping me, as I know it should. Moreover, I don't know her too well, we don't have that big of a history... if it were different I could possibly do it. I have been taking a lot more action than I have in the past lately.
She figures no tension is the best way to go about things. I agree with her rationality. She wants things to be cool between all of us, said she was sorry for how things are going down, but I am not really upset with her I guess. Call me dumb, call me blind, it won't change anything. If I got a sincere apology from someone else it would be pretty nice. Then again so would be an old medievil duel type of dealy.
It's good to know that she trusts me, I am just afraid of driving myself into a ditch with this. She said she has to get to know me outside of work better, and I am all for that. Oh well... til next time kiddos.... Listen to prodigy and stay in school.
My god... I am starting to hate myself. This journal was not made to be like this. It was made to keep track of events and stuff, that was interesting.... not to be a teenie bopper bandwagon craze. I feel stupid about this... but then again, I usually do write when I am upset, since my guitar is at my friends, and such.
I am such a whiny baby. I need a punching bag. Steel poles at work help a little.
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reagan:
every year i planed on going to halloween horro nights, i got sold out. have funnnnn
flux:
I hope I can do a Lithium set sometime. He's based out of Texas, so either I'll have to make a trip or wait 'til he comes to where I am. But man, I want to SO BAD.