just got home from work, and I feel so sick and tired. Whoever came up with this holiday should be trampled by all the people who were hurt by it. Ever. This holiday makes people expect certain things, and for others, it is one time that they show that they care. In a true relationship, it shouldn't take a fabricated coorporate conspiracy to make people show how they feel, or how they don't but think they should. This holiday is a joke, because the majority of it is nothing but lies. I went out last night, and things were ok for a short period of time, until I got back here. Then the pain started sinking in again. I need to do something, I need to get away. Maybe I just need to find a girl who is eccentric like I am. Just an idea. Wow, I am actually single. It is so odd. So what do I do now. Sometimes I wish I would've gone up to UF from the beginning. One girl I knew there was the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced. She wasn't mad crazy hot, nor was she one of those cookie cutter baywatch girls (all defining features). She was cute, had the perfect personality, she was something completely different.If you are still out there, I am sorry I let you go so easily. If you have someone... then I hope you are truly happy, because you deserve only the best. If you are alone, I want to be with you... and if you are single (or will be), I hope one day we will meet up again, and see how things go between us. Come back from there, theres nothing but cattle ranches and country music, and let us destroy this city. I know you are kind of a country girl at heart, but still, we can rule. You are different than anyone, truly one of a kind.
I am still trying to figure out how to get my mind off this crap. I can't be all depressed it will screw up all my work. Ash- if you are out there, I think we need to go see Against Me. I need to get into a good pit. It would be fun to get to chill with you again.
Chris there is nothing better to say "F it all" than a lil "self-mutilation." We need to get our tatts... and it needs to be soon.
I am still trying to figure out how to get my mind off this crap. I can't be all depressed it will screw up all my work. Ash- if you are out there, I think we need to go see Against Me. I need to get into a good pit. It would be fun to get to chill with you again.
Chris there is nothing better to say "F it all" than a lil "self-mutilation." We need to get our tatts... and it needs to be soon.
I missed my girl...very very much, I told her I'd be back by then, on leave, but things didn't go completely the right way, so I was there a lot longer than usual...
Then i get home and shes cheating on me...heh