Ugh.. It's been forever an a year since i've been on here... >.<
Work is killing me.
School is killing me.
My lack of social life is killing me.
My lack of romantic life is killing me.
Anyone else wanna join in on the fun? =P
It's hard to keep a positive outlook, when I can never seem to catch a break. I'm trying though. I know that if I can trudge through this shit-storm of a life a little bit longer, things have to get better. They have to.
Oh, and I graduate in December with a 3.92, and a degree in Drafting and Design. ^.^
And possibly a girl?
Eh.
The situation is a strange one. There was/is a boy already, but it is nothing official... She doesn't even know what they are. Then I came along, and apparently made a big enough hit to make her re-consider everything. What strikes me even more, is that she can talk to me about this stuff, but not him. She's said that she feels she can joke around with me a lot easier, I usually come back with a pun or something witty, whereas he leaves her hanging after the punchline.
She I guess she also finds me more stable, as I seem to not plan on leaving the area anytime in the near future... Where he is leaving for Florida in August for school, and she is very skeptical of long distance relationships.
Another perk that she's mentioned about me, is back from the first time we hung out together. She said how she has NEVER felt so comfortable around anyone, especially in a first time meeting.
Plus her bi-polar 15 year old cat who hates everyone but her adores me, and because of this she calls me the "Cat-Whisperer" (Oh one of the other perks she said about me is that I have the cutest fucking dog in the world... ROFL) Animal play a big part in her life, which makes me even more stoked, as I'm sure any of you who have talked to me before could pick up... xD
I dunno.. I mean, the fact that I obviously did something right to get where I am now, reassures me.
-But the fact that she seems so torn on the decision, and is waiting to talk to him before she makes any decisions, worries me. EVERY time I've been in a similar situation in the past, I always end up with the short straw, or get left behind.
It's even gotten to the point where no one can hurt me anymore. I've been so abused by everyone around me, that I've either lost the person, pushed them out, not let them get close enough...and so on. Pretty much the only person left who can hurt me, is my best friend, who ironically, despite her best efforts has done so in the past. (These sort of things happen when romantic relationships don't work out.)
But yeah, I'm just not sure what to do. However, seeing as how she's literally the first girl that I'm attracted to, that has shown ANY interest in me, whether it be passive or active... I'll probably stick around, wait it out, and hope not to get burned. After all, it's all about confidence, right?
DLJHSLHHJGSLGJDSFLHJDSLDLHSD
Sorry about that. >.<
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.... Anyway!
How have you all been out there in SG world? ^.^
Work is killing me.
School is killing me.
My lack of social life is killing me.
My lack of romantic life is killing me.
Anyone else wanna join in on the fun? =P
It's hard to keep a positive outlook, when I can never seem to catch a break. I'm trying though. I know that if I can trudge through this shit-storm of a life a little bit longer, things have to get better. They have to.
Oh, and I graduate in December with a 3.92, and a degree in Drafting and Design. ^.^
And possibly a girl?
Eh.
The situation is a strange one. There was/is a boy already, but it is nothing official... She doesn't even know what they are. Then I came along, and apparently made a big enough hit to make her re-consider everything. What strikes me even more, is that she can talk to me about this stuff, but not him. She's said that she feels she can joke around with me a lot easier, I usually come back with a pun or something witty, whereas he leaves her hanging after the punchline.
She I guess she also finds me more stable, as I seem to not plan on leaving the area anytime in the near future... Where he is leaving for Florida in August for school, and she is very skeptical of long distance relationships.
Another perk that she's mentioned about me, is back from the first time we hung out together. She said how she has NEVER felt so comfortable around anyone, especially in a first time meeting.
Plus her bi-polar 15 year old cat who hates everyone but her adores me, and because of this she calls me the "Cat-Whisperer" (Oh one of the other perks she said about me is that I have the cutest fucking dog in the world... ROFL) Animal play a big part in her life, which makes me even more stoked, as I'm sure any of you who have talked to me before could pick up... xD
I dunno.. I mean, the fact that I obviously did something right to get where I am now, reassures me.
-But the fact that she seems so torn on the decision, and is waiting to talk to him before she makes any decisions, worries me. EVERY time I've been in a similar situation in the past, I always end up with the short straw, or get left behind.
It's even gotten to the point where no one can hurt me anymore. I've been so abused by everyone around me, that I've either lost the person, pushed them out, not let them get close enough...and so on. Pretty much the only person left who can hurt me, is my best friend, who ironically, despite her best efforts has done so in the past. (These sort of things happen when romantic relationships don't work out.)
But yeah, I'm just not sure what to do. However, seeing as how she's literally the first girl that I'm attracted to, that has shown ANY interest in me, whether it be passive or active... I'll probably stick around, wait it out, and hope not to get burned. After all, it's all about confidence, right?
DLJHSLHHJGSLGJDSFLHJDSLDLHSD
Sorry about that. >.<
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.... Anyway!
How have you all been out there in SG world? ^.^
fairys:
WHATTTTT WHERE ARE YOUUUU?