sk8tjunkie

i feel lost, so broken. i dont understand why my life had to change so much. I was once so happy. Everything was normal. Everything has changed and feels so strange. I dont know what i think or who i am. What should be of this? Whats going on? im lost, someone save me and take this pain away. make me feel whole. I pushed away my only safe haven. should i have done that, was it good for me. should i have held on to it out of habit because i felt safe. everything was planned out. now im lost and have no idea where this life will lead. what do i do? i just want everything back to normal. im my own enemy. but is that true, is what he is saying right? i just want what i had back, but i dont know if thats right either. I dont know what i want or where i need to be or what i should be. im so alone and scared, someone save me and take this pain away. for my eyes are cloudy and i cant see.