well i could go on and on with my little pity story but im not. ill just say whats needed,...
i havent felt like updating this journal because i have nothing good to say.
well my story with the guy i love but cant be with is,...
BUT IF YOU DONT WANNA HEAR MY DRAWN OUT SAPPY CRUSH STORY JUST SKIP THIS PART!!!!!!!!
we went to highschool together known each other for four years-weve been pretty good friends off and on,..we sorta hafta be because he is in my class and i went to a private school and just my class had like 28 people so you cant really not talk to everyone.
well he liked me alot in like 9th grade we hung out all the time but i was dating his friend and when i quit dating his friend we kinda stopped hanging out. well i was in another group and he was in his little group. we were friends off and on.
Then we graduated. he always liked me,..but had no clue i liked him.
well we graduated and we started hanging out with the group everynite together. well his girlfriend is part of our group. i could tell his feelings were coming back i would be friendly but not do anything b/c he had a girl,....i didnt know if he was just being nice or flirting. one nite a few days after him and his girl hadnt talked for a few days from problems he kissed me something happened and we talked all the time and other things. well his girl was calling him all the time trying to make everything better with them. he didnt know if he wanted to break up with her or not. they've been togethera year, their suppose to go to school out of state tog. this august. so he told me sorry but he was crazy about me. well now i like him so much i hung out with them the other nite and it sucked seeing him with his girl. he'll like catch eyes with me on purpose and nod his head at me like man this sucks,..and it does .
well i know their relationship wont last b/c now im friends with both of them and i see the lies on both sides,..its kinda akward. it sounds like highschool bullshit ya know.
well tonite they get a keg,..but his girl isnt there...well i go outside to smoke and he follows and we're talking i want him,..but didnt act like it at all....so he leans over and kisses me and i CANT NOT KISS him
it fawkin sux,..and hes just like man,...dude...ur so beautiful its just hard.
well what am i suppose to do ya know????
i cant just stop hanging out with them its all my friends everynite parteeN ya know,..like 15 of us SAME PEOPLE every nite!!!
i dunno its just one of my shitty situations rite now.
so i took the week off of work to go to austin but then my boi and i broke up a bad one at that. i moved all my stuff out of the apartment. my tattoo guy called and said he was in town so i went and got a tat on my back,..from shoulder to shoulder. ill put pics up...its very pretty its a flower design. i sat thro an hour or so of outline and then 2 hours of shading. he ran out of time so i hafta go back to get color in a few weeks. i wanted to get it done ASAP because of summer so it sux that he couldnt do the color becuse now thats like a month of now swimming.
but its been kinda nice not working,..i dont wanna go back...uugghh
i wanna talk about something that makes me happy.
so im gonna tell you everything i love...
i love......
-shopping when im sad
-parliament lights (the P FUNKs)
-finally kissing a boy ive been waiting 4 years to kiss
-the tshirt sheets on my bed
-my dog lucy
-driviing standard
-a glass of wine with a bath
-the feeling after you just worked out
-the beach
-the sunset
-being on the roof at my friends loft that loox over downtown,..drinking with everyone until the sun comes up
-my imac
-rain
-music
-sex
-my thrift store shirts that are soft as shit
-miller light
okie ill stop there,...tell me more to make me happy
i havent felt like updating this journal because i have nothing good to say.
well my story with the guy i love but cant be with is,...
BUT IF YOU DONT WANNA HEAR MY DRAWN OUT SAPPY CRUSH STORY JUST SKIP THIS PART!!!!!!!!
we went to highschool together known each other for four years-weve been pretty good friends off and on,..we sorta hafta be because he is in my class and i went to a private school and just my class had like 28 people so you cant really not talk to everyone.
well he liked me alot in like 9th grade we hung out all the time but i was dating his friend and when i quit dating his friend we kinda stopped hanging out. well i was in another group and he was in his little group. we were friends off and on.
Then we graduated. he always liked me,..but had no clue i liked him.
well we graduated and we started hanging out with the group everynite together. well his girlfriend is part of our group. i could tell his feelings were coming back i would be friendly but not do anything b/c he had a girl,....i didnt know if he was just being nice or flirting. one nite a few days after him and his girl hadnt talked for a few days from problems he kissed me something happened and we talked all the time and other things. well his girl was calling him all the time trying to make everything better with them. he didnt know if he wanted to break up with her or not. they've been togethera year, their suppose to go to school out of state tog. this august. so he told me sorry but he was crazy about me. well now i like him so much i hung out with them the other nite and it sucked seeing him with his girl. he'll like catch eyes with me on purpose and nod his head at me like man this sucks,..and it does .
well i know their relationship wont last b/c now im friends with both of them and i see the lies on both sides,..its kinda akward. it sounds like highschool bullshit ya know.
well tonite they get a keg,..but his girl isnt there...well i go outside to smoke and he follows and we're talking i want him,..but didnt act like it at all....so he leans over and kisses me and i CANT NOT KISS him
it fawkin sux,..and hes just like man,...dude...ur so beautiful its just hard.
well what am i suppose to do ya know????
i cant just stop hanging out with them its all my friends everynite parteeN ya know,..like 15 of us SAME PEOPLE every nite!!!
i dunno its just one of my shitty situations rite now.
so i took the week off of work to go to austin but then my boi and i broke up a bad one at that. i moved all my stuff out of the apartment. my tattoo guy called and said he was in town so i went and got a tat on my back,..from shoulder to shoulder. ill put pics up...its very pretty its a flower design. i sat thro an hour or so of outline and then 2 hours of shading. he ran out of time so i hafta go back to get color in a few weeks. i wanted to get it done ASAP because of summer so it sux that he couldnt do the color becuse now thats like a month of now swimming.
but its been kinda nice not working,..i dont wanna go back...uugghh
i wanna talk about something that makes me happy.
so im gonna tell you everything i love...
i love......
-shopping when im sad
-parliament lights (the P FUNKs)
-finally kissing a boy ive been waiting 4 years to kiss
-the tshirt sheets on my bed
-my dog lucy
-driviing standard
-a glass of wine with a bath
-the feeling after you just worked out
-the beach
-the sunset
-being on the roof at my friends loft that loox over downtown,..drinking with everyone until the sun comes up
-my imac
-rain
-music
-sex
-my thrift store shirts that are soft as shit
-miller light
okie ill stop there,...tell me more to make me happy
Great list of things to love - with the Exception of Miller Light