sk8tjunkie

okie so im back now! alot has gone on monday i spent my day at jays dad funeral. he died on thursday from smoking,..with me and his family sitting there with him. ive been so depressed,..i couldnt imagine how jay is feeling now! anyway,..so many things keep coming up and i still havent taken my set yet,..uugghh i was smoking occasionally but since he died i tried quittin again,..i havent smoked today or yesterday i want to at least get it down to where im occasionally smoking on weekends,..and then finally stopping. its like when your life is completely sucking you cant quit smoking,..and my life has hit rock bottom this year,..the last time i felt like this was when i was in rehab and that was shit like 4 years ago,... ive been happy since and then i hit rock bottom again it sucks,..but i got a new wonderful boyfriend(hes my dream) and its like i cant be happy i want him to experience me and i want to be happy with him and then we turn to take a look at everything else going on inour lives and we are just like ffawwkk! i dunno ill quit bitchin,..i colored my hair and cut it...it loox cute,..its black and choclate with platinum streaks on top and underneath,..its cute!!!
well anyway,..whud up?