This is only my side of the story.. I know that its only a side that has all my opinions and no one else s I know that. I would really like to get advice, I've been moving along in a haze for about 3 weeks now. Stressing and not making right choices.
Last night I cut off everyone, I found my limit and I just couldn't go on anymore. Sperm donor, made a choice with out even having a conversation with me, he just stopped talking to me, other then a hug and a how are you doing? He couldn't even man up to anything, he took the child's way out and is just going to pretend I'm not pregnant. I think I would rather him just be Fuck you Heather, atleast something that has a little more feeling.
So you come to a point then, where you just stop caring, You can't change a person so for you to keep your sanity you must change your way of thinking. That's what I did... I didn't bring up anything to sperm donor, and for about a hour it was like old times. We played darts and laughed and all that good stuff.
I wanted to leave early from the bar my stomach was a little upset and I had to get up early so I said by to everyone and left. Well I had a seizure in the parking lot, it was pretty bad and of course no one was around, when it was done and I came to, I text my friend and told her that I had one... She was still in the bar, she text me back and Asked if I was okay.... Umm no I just had a seizure, I told her I was in the parking lot, and I sat there waiting... I think I waited for about 20 min and came to the conclusion that she was it coming. I had to Pee so bad so I walked in to the bar.
What do you think I saw, Sperm donor, my BFF and the girl I was texting sitting in a group laughing their heads off!!!!( and yes the Girl got my last text stating where I was) I think I saw red.., I hear that saying a lot but I never felt it. I felt betrayed , mostly from my BFF the one person that Will tell me when I'm fucking up , and stand by me when I'm hurting. But here she is having a great time with sperm donor who is not owning up to his responisabilieties .
Of course all those times that I put things aside to be there for her... and she's been there for me as well but for some reason, those didn't matter.... my whole new out look from earlier was gone as well!!! I knew at that moment I was done....
People when they except all the really bad parts in people. Those People will never learn, I"m not the one to teach this to sperm donor, I don't think he will ever learn, not when ever one cater's to him. When People never call him out because of the things that he does.
Just like how he stole things from People... and these People still talk to him and as soon as Sperm donor walks away they talk shit on him... sigh Just tell Him you know what he did!
So I'm done, I'm not made for this kind of life, I need to stop thinking of others and then thinking that they treat me the same way... because they don't....
Yes and I found out that my BFF is coke addict she's been doing it for years... I never knew this, I don't do drugs, People want to do them fine but I don't , why didn't she tell me?This is only my side of the story.. I know that its only a side that has all my opinions and no one else s I know that. I would really like to get advice, I've been moving along in a haze for about 3 weeks now. Stressing and not making right choices.
Last night I cut off everyone, I found my limit and I just couldn't go on anymore. Sperm donor, made a choice with out even having a conversation with me, he just stopped talking to me, other then a hug and a how are you doing? He couldn't even man up to anything, he took the child's way out and is just going to pretend I'm not pregnant. I think I would rather him just be Fuck you Heather, atleast something that has a little more feeling.
So you come to a point then, where you just stop caring, You can't change a person so for you to keep your sanity you must change your way of thinking. That's what I did... I didn't bring up anything to sperm donor, and for about a hour it was like old times. We played darts and laughed and all that good stuff.
I wanted to leave early from the bar my stomach was a little upset and I had to get up early so I said by to everyone and left. Well I had a seizure in the parking lot, it was pretty bad and of course no one was around, when it was done and I came to, I text my friend and told her that I had one... She was still in the bar, she text me back and Asked if I was okay.... Umm no I just had a seizure, I told her I was in the parking lot, and I sat there waiting... I think I waited for about 20 min and came to the conclusion that she was it coming. I had to Pee so bad so I walked in to the bar.
What do you think I saw, Sperm donor, my BFF and the girl I was texting sitting in a group laughing their heads off!!!!( and yes the Girl got my last text stating where I was) I think I saw red.., I hear that saying a lot but I never felt it. I felt betrayed , mostly from my BFF the one person that Will tell me when I'm fucking up , and stand by me when I'm hurting. But here she is having a great time with sperm donor who is not owning up to his responisabilieties .
Of course all those times that I put things aside to be there for her... and she's been there for me as well but for some reason, those didn't matter.... my whole new out look from earlier was gone as well!!! I knew at that moment I was done....
People when they except all the really bad parts in people. Those People will never learn, I"m not the one to teach this to sperm donor, I don't think he will ever learn, not when ever one cater's to him. When People never call him out because of the things that he does.
Just like how he stole things from People... and these People still talk to him and as soon as Sperm donor walks away they talk shit on him... sigh Just tell Him you know what he did!
So I'm done, I'm not made for this kind of life, I need to stop thinking of others and then thinking that they treat me the same way... because they don't....
Yes and I found out that my BFF is coke addict she's been doing it for years... I never knew this, I don't do drugs, People want to do them fine but I don't , why didn't she tell me?
Last night I cut off everyone, I found my limit and I just couldn't go on anymore. Sperm donor, made a choice with out even having a conversation with me, he just stopped talking to me, other then a hug and a how are you doing? He couldn't even man up to anything, he took the child's way out and is just going to pretend I'm not pregnant. I think I would rather him just be Fuck you Heather, atleast something that has a little more feeling.
So you come to a point then, where you just stop caring, You can't change a person so for you to keep your sanity you must change your way of thinking. That's what I did... I didn't bring up anything to sperm donor, and for about a hour it was like old times. We played darts and laughed and all that good stuff.
I wanted to leave early from the bar my stomach was a little upset and I had to get up early so I said by to everyone and left. Well I had a seizure in the parking lot, it was pretty bad and of course no one was around, when it was done and I came to, I text my friend and told her that I had one... She was still in the bar, she text me back and Asked if I was okay.... Umm no I just had a seizure, I told her I was in the parking lot, and I sat there waiting... I think I waited for about 20 min and came to the conclusion that she was it coming. I had to Pee so bad so I walked in to the bar.
What do you think I saw, Sperm donor, my BFF and the girl I was texting sitting in a group laughing their heads off!!!!( and yes the Girl got my last text stating where I was) I think I saw red.., I hear that saying a lot but I never felt it. I felt betrayed , mostly from my BFF the one person that Will tell me when I'm fucking up , and stand by me when I'm hurting. But here she is having a great time with sperm donor who is not owning up to his responisabilieties .
Of course all those times that I put things aside to be there for her... and she's been there for me as well but for some reason, those didn't matter.... my whole new out look from earlier was gone as well!!! I knew at that moment I was done....
People when they except all the really bad parts in people. Those People will never learn, I"m not the one to teach this to sperm donor, I don't think he will ever learn, not when ever one cater's to him. When People never call him out because of the things that he does.
Just like how he stole things from People... and these People still talk to him and as soon as Sperm donor walks away they talk shit on him... sigh Just tell Him you know what he did!
So I'm done, I'm not made for this kind of life, I need to stop thinking of others and then thinking that they treat me the same way... because they don't....
Yes and I found out that my BFF is coke addict she's been doing it for years... I never knew this, I don't do drugs, People want to do them fine but I don't , why didn't she tell me?This is only my side of the story.. I know that its only a side that has all my opinions and no one else s I know that. I would really like to get advice, I've been moving along in a haze for about 3 weeks now. Stressing and not making right choices.
Last night I cut off everyone, I found my limit and I just couldn't go on anymore. Sperm donor, made a choice with out even having a conversation with me, he just stopped talking to me, other then a hug and a how are you doing? He couldn't even man up to anything, he took the child's way out and is just going to pretend I'm not pregnant. I think I would rather him just be Fuck you Heather, atleast something that has a little more feeling.
So you come to a point then, where you just stop caring, You can't change a person so for you to keep your sanity you must change your way of thinking. That's what I did... I didn't bring up anything to sperm donor, and for about a hour it was like old times. We played darts and laughed and all that good stuff.
I wanted to leave early from the bar my stomach was a little upset and I had to get up early so I said by to everyone and left. Well I had a seizure in the parking lot, it was pretty bad and of course no one was around, when it was done and I came to, I text my friend and told her that I had one... She was still in the bar, she text me back and Asked if I was okay.... Umm no I just had a seizure, I told her I was in the parking lot, and I sat there waiting... I think I waited for about 20 min and came to the conclusion that she was it coming. I had to Pee so bad so I walked in to the bar.
What do you think I saw, Sperm donor, my BFF and the girl I was texting sitting in a group laughing their heads off!!!!( and yes the Girl got my last text stating where I was) I think I saw red.., I hear that saying a lot but I never felt it. I felt betrayed , mostly from my BFF the one person that Will tell me when I'm fucking up , and stand by me when I'm hurting. But here she is having a great time with sperm donor who is not owning up to his responisabilieties .
Of course all those times that I put things aside to be there for her... and she's been there for me as well but for some reason, those didn't matter.... my whole new out look from earlier was gone as well!!! I knew at that moment I was done....
People when they except all the really bad parts in people. Those People will never learn, I"m not the one to teach this to sperm donor, I don't think he will ever learn, not when ever one cater's to him. When People never call him out because of the things that he does.
Just like how he stole things from People... and these People still talk to him and as soon as Sperm donor walks away they talk shit on him... sigh Just tell Him you know what he did!
So I'm done, I'm not made for this kind of life, I need to stop thinking of others and then thinking that they treat me the same way... because they don't....
Yes and I found out that my BFF is coke addict she's been doing it for years... I never knew this, I don't do drugs, People want to do them fine but I don't , why didn't she tell me?
This may only be your side of the story, but i don't want to hear theirs.
Good luck.