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So, here's the first bit of the tattoo I've been making such a fuss about for the past two years. A couple more of the rest of the outline in my pics folder, if it pleases you.

I was a little disappointed with myself. I had to halt the session due to pain. My first tattoo on my lower back - I swear I didn't feel a thing... I may as well have not even been there for all I felt. As I've gotten older, it seems my ability to withstand pain has lessened. The closer she got to my inner thigh with that needle, the harder it became for me to sit still. She recommended I get a topical numbing cream for my next session. I'm wrestling with the idea of that right now, as that's the same as getting pierced with a gun for me. Something I NEVER thought I would do. But, I'm not even in the same head space as I was when I got the idea for the tattoo... since it is about being Cruel. Now it seems I'm able to open up and feel things more than I used to... including hurt. Hmph.

She was surprised by how still and quiet I was for the amount that she got done. Said she's a wuss and would never have been able to withstand it... in such a sensitive area. Was surprised when I suddenly called it quits.

Tonight I'm meeting up with my friend Tyler for a cocktail or two. We're shooting his comedy short on Sunday, so I suppose we'll discuss wardrobe and whatnot, but more than likely just goof off. I don't have a big role. There isn't much to talk about, script-wise, I image.

I'm also hoping to hear from a boy I've been a bit smitten with for the past few months. He emailed to say he's moving to New York on Monday and wants to hook up and party before he leaves. I hope I get to see him.

In other news. I need to get laid. And it has to be good. It's gotten to the point where I've just gotten hard up and grumpy about it. I need blowyourmindamazingsoreforthreedayshardcorenastyfucking. I can't DO that on my own!!! Dammit!

Uhm.. spent the better part of today helping my friend Danny haul his stuff from Ontario to my place so he can get back on his feet after losing his car to Tijuana cops. It's going to be weird having someone besides Tiger and me in the household. But, I love Danny and I'm sure we'll get on well.

Okay, off to help him get settled and then head out for the night.

Cha!


Threw you the obvious
and you flew with it on your back
a name
in your recollection
down among a million same

difficult not to feel a little bit
disappointed and passed over
when I look right through
I see you naked but oblivious

and you don't see me

"Up until the mid twentieth century the mountain gorilla was considered a myth. Oddly enough, a legend not unlike bigfoot or the loch ness monster. The chance of actually seeing/experiencing this elusive shadow was as likely as finding ones soulmate.
Rare.

Precious.

Even once discovered they seemed unapproachable. The only way to get close to this magnificent creature was to become empathetic. Abandon all pretense and preconceptions.

To bare an open throat.
To collapse into the arms of vulnerability.

All but extinct, these beings/moments are threatened by the black hearted.

The cold and oblivious.
The empty eyed profit seekers that overlook these

Rare

Precious

Moments."

- Maynard James Keenan