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Is love so fragile and the heart so hollow
Shatter with words impossible to follow
You're sayin' I'm fragile, I try not to be
I search only for something I can't see

I have my own life and I am stronger than you know
But I carry this feeling, when you walked into my house
That you won't be walking out the door
Still I carry this feeling, when you walked into my house
That you won't be walking out the door

Lovers forever, face to face
My city, your mountains, stay with me stay
I need you to love me, I need you today
Give to me your leather, take from me my lace

I'm fuckin' feeling down right now! This is so lame. I have an awesome weekend coming up.. I can't get all gloomy now.

I was at the taqueria in North Hollywood with the jukebox playing Mariachi music and the staff that doesn't speak english and it threw me back. I could've been in the Mission... I got chills and nearly broke into tears right in the middle of that Mexican restaurant. I miss my City. I can't wait to go back and see her. She'll always be the closest thing to a home for me.

Sometimes I just get so lonely. I know it's my doing. I make a concentrated effort to keep people a measured distance away from me. I can't afford the level of vulnerability involved in emotional relationships.

So, I get lonely sometimes. It happens.

As soon as I pulled off the freeway Stevie Nicks came on the radio singing Leather and Lace. I just gave in, pulled the car over, shut of the engine and cried into the steering wheel. Because as far as I was concerned, she was singing about San Francisco.

I wonder how long I'll make it out here in L.A. until I go running back to her. Three months? Six? One year? Five? I always go back.

And I'm fucking missing PLAY DAY at The Lusty Lady!!!