ugh... worked two ten-hour days on saturday and sunday... a lil 4 hour shift today... i am fuckin beat... feels like i live there... got a full night's sleep last night for the first time in days... i really do like my job, but that shit can drain you...
gonna drive to my school in the mornin and see what books i need... i would...
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gonna drive to my school in the mornin and see what books i need... i would...
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it's my ex's birthday tomorrow... or today if you're in illinois... or east of there... dammit... i am missing her, but i know now more than ever that there's no going back... even if she came back, she could no longer fill my empty spaces... 
... and i can't fill hers... we each need to do that on our own... it sucks to be alone...
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pixidust:
wow pretty girl, we should run away together and be the bitter and confused twins.... the part about not knowing if you should go deeper into your brain or less is so true.i love reading your journals, its helping me a lot . thank you. take care my dear... stop by and say hi sometime my journal misses you.
:::HUGS:::::
:::HUGS:::::
hmm hmm hmm... got some wine... not getting shitfaced, just getting relaxed... it's not a good habit, but it's the first time in probably over a month i bought alcohol for use in my home... no guilt, dammit... i swim in it sometimes... guilt, i mean... the curse of being a good girl...
discovered some money i didn't know i had... yay for spare change!...
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discovered some money i didn't know i had... yay for spare change!...
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_gone_:
cool 
nice i havnt bought one of those black binder blank books in awhile now ... bought a few sketch pads & one scratch pad the other day tho ... filling those up will take me a little while
write write write
~ Alien
nice i havnt bought one of those black binder blank books in awhile now ... bought a few sketch pads & one scratch pad the other day tho ... filling those up will take me a little while
write write write
~ Alien
pixidust:
hey sweetie pie, that is indeed the makings of a good night, i cant wait until i have my new place, i can have MY life back and hide and take care of me for a bit. im sure you know all about that. i guess if comes from being a capricorn. anyway i too must fill blank pages...but its for school. GRRR take care!
<3 pixidust
<3 pixidust
hehe... i've never taken the time to fully explore the groups and stuff on here ... i'm goin a little crazy, postin shit... i need to get out of the house... oy... 
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_gone_:
no worries on the hermit front .. i totally go into that phase too when im busy on my writing .. its kinda the norm for writers to be that way from time to time .. shut out the rest of the world so we can have a quiet place to comtemplate and create .. just remember that you are never alone when you are here .. looky i found you didnt i and now you cant get me to leave you alone [even @ this late hour] and i wont i promise .. unless you want me to then ill get all poopie faced and thats not a pretty sight ..
i tend to be up in the wee hours of the night writing because it seems to be the best time for me personally & my head is clear of mundane thoughts .. when its really quiet and not a creature is stirring ... not even a mouse ... errr sorry .. i just quoted from 'twas the night before christmas' ... didnt i .. lol
~ Alien
i tend to be up in the wee hours of the night writing because it seems to be the best time for me personally & my head is clear of mundane thoughts .. when its really quiet and not a creature is stirring ... not even a mouse ... errr sorry .. i just quoted from 'twas the night before christmas' ... didnt i .. lol
~ Alien
pixidust:
i think that picture is rad as hell i put it as my desktop !!!! 
posted some new pics... i rarely feel like taking pictures of myself and when i do i'm very critical of them, so i take a shitload at one time and then only select a few to actually use... not too bad this time... some i like more than others...
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nice pics ... you are very cute
ill post some of myself when i find the time ... til then
~ Alien
ill post some of myself when i find the time ... til then
~ Alien
a long sunday stretched out in front of me... so much i want to do... but will i? my eternal struggle is the one against my natural tendancy to stagnate... become a hermit... motivation follows action... i'lll try to get off my ass here now... or maybe in a few minutes...
pixidust:
ah your real sweet, that kind of silly comments make me smile...im adding you to my friends list so we can dish about your boobs and stuff. oh and i love quills!!! that gives you major points! yay ps your really cute <3
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lol ... i like your sense of humor .. big points all around .. yay
isnt pixie so cool shes one of the bestest friends i have here * but shhh ... dont tell her i said that
enjoy your renewal and remember that if youre in need of anything we're just a click away so use that im not kidding
i found that the all of the people that ive met here already are really fucking cool ... and a great resource of information
~ Alien
isnt pixie so cool shes one of the bestest friends i have here * but shhh ... dont tell her i said that
enjoy your renewal and remember that if youre in need of anything we're just a click away so use that im not kidding
i found that the all of the people that ive met here already are really fucking cool ... and a great resource of information
~ Alien
hwa hwa... feelin a little betta... not sure where my head is at right now... just renewed my membership here for a year ... perhaps not the wisest uses of money but i don't believe i'll regret it... i really love this site... and being single, i frequent this page much more than i once did... always loved it though... still do... 
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... perhaps not the wisest uses of money but i don't believe i'll regret it... i really love this site... and being single, i frequent this page much more than i once did... always loved it though... still do... ... hehe... a... Read More
_gone_:
good for you im glad you decided to do that and joined my merry bunch of comrades check my group of friends .. i screened them personally so go announce yourself and add the ones you want too theyre all good people and very supportive ... now i can bother you with having to look for yas .. yay
~ Alien
im glad you decided to do that and joined my merry bunch of comrades check my group of friends .. i screened them personally so go announce yourself and add the ones you want too theyre all good people and very supportive ... now i can bother you with having to look for yas .. yay
~ Alien
okay... might as well make a post... why not... it wouldn't kill me to be social, though it doesn't exactly come naturally to me... so here i am... hmm hmm... bored and lonely on my day off...
_gone_:
hey .. dont be sad .. 
was just browsing but should be sleeping .. saw your post and thought i should say something ...
~ Alien
was just browsing but should be sleeping .. saw your post and thought i should say something ...
~ Alien
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hey good to see you smile in the picture ... its like 4 am here in nyc and i have insomnia and im watching the olympics on tv.
this girl probably thinks im a serial killer or something
~ Alien
this girl probably thinks im a serial killer or something
~ Alien