goodness... 
... i feel a bit overwhelmed with the things i've let myself do... no regrets... just emotions that have come along with stuff i've done largely out of a type of desperation... tho i have come to realize desperation is not a flattering state ... you generally end up looking foolish... or at least feeling that way... 
... i prefer to be in control,...
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... i feel a bit overwhelmed with the things i've let myself do... no regrets... just emotions that have come along with stuff i've done largely out of a type of desperation... tho i have come to realize desperation is not a flattering state ... you generally end up looking foolish... or at least feeling that way... ... i prefer to be in control,... Read More
geez, it's been a long time since i updated this page... almost a month... lately when i've come here i've gone straight to the photosets ... i have actually been talking to people i'm interested in and i'm very close to going on my first real "date" date ever... no pressure though ... hehe... crazy... i'm excited and stuff... i just had to get past...
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... i have actually been talking to people i'm interested in and i'm very close to going on my first real "date" date ever... no pressure though ... hehe... crazy... i'm excited and stuff... i just had to get past... Read More
_gone_:
wow .. youre right .. it has been a long time .. missed you ..
good luck on your date .. hope shes the one for you .. just have fun okay .. no pressure .. let me know how it goes
love ya .. take care
~ Alien
good luck on your date .. hope shes the one for you .. just have fun okay .. no pressure .. let me know how it goes
love ya .. take care
~ Alien
pmvirgin:
Good luck...Someday, I hope to get a date myself.
Happy Valentine's Day
Happy Valentine's Day
hmmm...
i am not looking forward to dating...... it is to suck... i don't know how to do that shit... i never have... i tend to fall in love quick and suddenly i am committed... i must learn not to do that... a relationship doesn't have to last forever in order to be worth the time you put into it... i have always been...
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i am not looking forward to dating...
... it is to suck... i don't know how to do that shit... i never have... i tend to fall in love quick and suddenly i am committed... i must learn not to do that... a relationship doesn't have to last forever in order to be worth the time you put into it... i have always been... Read More
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stitches_u_up:
Dating does definately suck ass. I know what you mean by fallingin to that committed situation all too quickly. I always want to curse my affliction of lonliness when i think about what it makes me do. sometimes you just have to embrace the lonliness and focus on the things other than companionship that can make you happy. I really need to think on that last thought. lol like i will follow throuh with that, haha.
Conflicted, damn that should be my work of teh decade, lol.
BTW, you have pretty eyes.
Conflicted, damn that should be my work of teh decade, lol.
BTW, you have pretty eyes.
seattledome:
Going to a Burningman (Portland Crew) benefit tonight at FEZ in Portland, should be fun!!!
Have not really been here much in a long time. Hope you are well.
Planning a trip to go snowbaording in colorado and Utah, No snow in Pacific NW!!!!!!!!
Check out my new biodiesel/ Burningman project truck i just bought up in Canada, it is one of my pics.
I am always looking to have fun and do little photo shoots with peeps now that I am getting used to the switch from analog to digital SLR. Let me know if you know any folks looking for shots. Especially band and fashion shots. Might even be fun to do a few joint projects. I am talking to some of my make-up and stylist friends about help when i need it..
Have not really been here much in a long time. Hope you are well.
Planning a trip to go snowbaording in colorado and Utah, No snow in Pacific NW!!!!!!!!
Check out my new biodiesel/ Burningman project truck i just bought up in Canada, it is one of my pics.
I am always looking to have fun and do little photo shoots with peeps now that I am getting used to the switch from analog to digital SLR. Let me know if you know any folks looking for shots. Especially band and fashion shots. Might even be fun to do a few joint projects. I am talking to some of my make-up and stylist friends about help when i need it..
okay, i've been off here for a long time...
getting caught up on all my home shit... have dishes piled up from the last time i posted on here... sifting through christmas and birthday loot ... trying to save my house from a testosterone saturated chihuahua who thinks i'm his bitch and tries to protect me from my other dog by growling his bug-eyed...
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getting caught up on all my home shit... have dishes piled up from the last time i posted on here
... sifting through christmas and birthday loot ... trying to save my house from a testosterone saturated chihuahua who thinks i'm his bitch and tries to protect me from my other dog by growling his bug-eyed... Read More
_pauly_:
quality venting sissy, don't let her bring you down 
joenobody:
hi, i'm bothering people on the "reccomended members list.
jeez, it seems like whatever you do, there's always gotta be someone at work who's nothing but drama.
a writer eh? what kind of stuff do you write?
jeez, it seems like whatever you do, there's always gotta be someone at work who's nothing but drama.
a writer eh? what kind of stuff do you write?
i am feeling good... better than i have in a long time... i feel more complete than i have for over a year... since the ex left... yes, i've been bummed thinking of her... i don't know what will happen... for once i'm kind of comfortable with that... more comfortable in my own skin than i ever have been... i'm open to love, whether it...
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pixidust:
hey pretty girl,
happiest for birthday wishes my dear!!!!!! have fun!!!! you are soooo old now..tee hee
happiest for birthday wishes my dear!!!!!! have fun!!!! you are soooo old now..tee hee
_pauly_:
happy new year sissy, i hope 2005 is a good year for you
happy new year sissy, i hope 2005 is a good year for you feeling better... kinda good actually...
"sometimes it's a good day to die, and some days it's a good day to have breakfast."
-thomas builds-the-fire, smoke signals, sherman alexie
pancakes can be so good...
taking the time to listen to myself and it's doing me good...
"sometimes it's a good day to die, and some days it's a good day to have breakfast."
-thomas builds-the-fire, smoke signals, sherman alexie
pancakes can be so good...
taking the time to listen to myself and it's doing me good...
_gone_:
hey you
hmmm .. angst .. pancakes do sound good
be well
~ Alien
hmmm .. angst .. pancakes do sound good
be well
~ Alien
_pauly_:
good to hear your feeling better
mmmmm........pancakes
take care
mmmmm........pancakes
take care
okay...
gotta work for a bit this morning and go to school this evening... i'm behind... i don't know if it's because i'm a slacher and i procrastinate or because parts of me consciously want to fail... maybe it's because i can't stand being a good girls all the time... whatever the reason, i kind of dread class tonight, though i shouldn't... i should enjoy...
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gotta work for a bit this morning and go to school this evening... i'm behind... i don't know if it's because i'm a slacher and i procrastinate or because parts of me consciously want to fail... maybe it's because i can't stand being a good girls all the time... whatever the reason, i kind of dread class tonight, though i shouldn't... i should enjoy...
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pmvirgin:
I never bother taking classes that I'm not interested in...
Then go have some, dammit
Then go have some, dammit
_gone_:
hey
good to hear from ya .. howve you been?
its goood to be baaad .. so go ahead and be lazy if you can afford to
later babe
~ Alien
good to hear from ya .. howve you been?
its goood to be baaad .. so go ahead and be lazy if you can afford to
later babe
~ Alien
okay... the all-nighter wasn't too bad... kinda like staying in a hotel, only not... spent the day with my family today... and again tomorrow... hmm hmm... i get paid soon...
school tomorrow... and i get to apply for winter classes soon... i think i'll take yoga... i need to learn to meditate... i think that would help my state of mind... among other things...
i'm...
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school tomorrow... and i get to apply for winter classes soon... i think i'll take yoga... i need to learn to meditate... i think that would help my state of mind... among other things...
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_pauly_:
"what do toilet seats, anniversaries and a clitoris have in common?...............men miss them all"
bad joke sorry, but don't be sad. take care
bad joke sorry, but don't be sad. take care
ljungberg_8:
i don't scare easily! thanks for the comment, 1st i've gotten. yoga sounds interesting, the basis for a new pic folder?
okay... i have to work on thanksgiving... 24 hour shift... i don't have the heart to say no... it's not fair they pick me for these jobs because i'm single, but at the same time i don't have the heart to say no and pull someone else away from their family... dammit... i'm too nice and they love me... and hopefully i'll be well compensated......
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_pauly_:
you better get compensated, they can't have you working on thanksgiving and not get anything extra.
and don't be lonely, i'm sure someone will call
just relax and take care
and don't be lonely, i'm sure someone will call
just relax and take care
oy... working so much i don't have time to think... which is maybe a good thing... for now anyway... i can get spazzy when i'm not working... i need structure ... or maybe just responsibility to keep me grounded... dammit... it's viscious... hmm hmm... i need to fucking relax... and eat... and have some tea...
... or maybe just responsibility to keep me grounded... dammit... it's viscious... hmm hmm... i need to fucking relax... and eat... and have some tea...
been awhile .. how are you?
i like your new cut
~ Alien