sissy

off to the grinding again... 4 days this time... i shall have to take some chocolate chips and make my coffee muffins... and stuff... make goodies to keep me at least slightly busy... reading "tipping the velvet" for the first time... despite the obvious differences in time it seems eerily familiar at spots... feeling shattered is quite universal, and i've felt it...

hehe... i just couldn't be blonde for long... hair is now purple... and i love it... wonder what the people at work will think... ah well... i can always wear a hanky over it if i offend... ...

my hair is cut... it may be another color soon but for now it is bleached platinum... i have been so busy... between work and vacations i am spending very few nights at home... blah... the girl i'm interested in is far away until the middle of this month but she wrote and said she missed me... we've only had 3 dates and she misses...
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single and dating again, but the desperate quality has been lost... i'm relaxing, realizing once again that my happiness lies in my own hands and no one else's... things i have known but needed to be reminded of, if gently... love and sex are very nice things but you have to take your worth from inside yourself if you want it to mean anything at...
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i have been dumped... i'm not as upset as i would've pictured myself to be, though it figures it would happen right after i finally allow myself to get excited about her... i will miss her smell and her cooking and her kisses but i'm sure that life will go on, while after my previous relationships i wasn't sure of that fact until months later......
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it's been a while since i was on here i guess... i have a girlfriend... she makes me feel good and doesn't demand i change anything about myself for her... she doesn't require my approval to live her life a certain way... i don't feel like i need to spend every waking moment with her in order to be happy and i haven't lost any...
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gawd... nearly a month since i posted here... i still get on here daily but i mostly just go straight to the girls lately... i am drinking guiness right now... i don't much care for beer but guiness isn't too bad, hehe... i should've just started cleaning when i got home but instead i started drinking and got on the internet... the story of my...
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OKAY!!! hehe...

i got tattooed today... i loved it and i love the outcome and jen billig is the best and i am happy...

once i'm healed and i figure out my money situation i will figure out the spynxes... have to figure out my priorities... i could use new glasses... but i'm thinking completing the tattoo will take priority for some reason ... i'll...
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I GET TATTOOED ON WEDNESDAY!!!

hehe... i'm psyched... getting the auryn from the neverending story on my left shoulder... black and gray... big and beautiful ... hehe... sphynxes underneath to come at a later date... but they will come... oh yes, they will come, hehe... the first gate to the southern oracle... i am so psyched...

it's been a good day... ...

okay, so this is my first day off in seven days... i'm so glad to be off and determined to do something with this day that i'm stressing myself out even more... what i need to do is just relax and see where the day takes me... it's so easy for me to get wound up these days... people keep telling me i'm tense... that...
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