sissy

i am all caught up on my school shit... wrote a second short story for class... adjusting to being broke for the next several weeks, dammit... have been getting zero hours at work but have a full shift tomorrow... being away from that place for a week and a half feels like forever... need to watch my final adult foster care video... those things are so damn dull, and i know what they'll do with me once i've passed the certification... they'll try and get me to work at the facility where the shifts last 24 hours... 24 hours during which you can't fucking leave the grounds... i would feel so trapped, but i'm the obvious candidate since i have no husband and no kids... i guess to them that means i don't really have a life... grumble grumble... ...

oh well... school is going well and i'm pulling out of a bit of a slump i've been in... i feel rather helpless emotionally and don't know what to do with myself a lot of the time... i need to move my bed... i'm not sleeping well and my dreams are bad... i need a change, even if it's just turning my bed so that it points a different direction... i get these urges to do the oddest things, but i usually feel much better after i've done them... re-arranging furniture... oy...