i have worked a lot lately... haven't felt awake at all the past two days... i've been watching too many movies to actually appreciate any of them... i still dunno what to do with myself... i should write and read... should is a popular word with me... spoke with my ex today... she continues to be my best friend... we know each other so well... we cheer each other on... offer support over the 2000 mile gap... i'm making this new life, always hoping it can sometime measure up to what i had before... take as much comfort and happiness from myself as i used to take from her... still miss her ass though... the best way i've found to live a life alone is that i've stopped using her as an excuse not to live my life... now to make sure i'm not making other excuses... i am in motion, but am i moving fast enough?
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movies and books are a great distraction while youre in that funk
its good that you still talk to her & you still consider her your best friend .... but doesnt that just makes it so much harder to get over everything ... & to move on?
~ Alien