To all of the people reading this.. Hi.
So life at the moment isn't where I really wanted it to be. I mean finally got a boyfriend.. but somehow in this relationship I feel like the mistress more than the actual partner.. So I don't really know how to take that. I mean.. I feel like I whine and whinge but honestly would it really be that bad to take me out once in a while not just cancel dinner dates with me to have sex in a hotel.. Or even when he comes to my house.. I spend the day cooking him a meal for him to eat out with his friends and push me into the bedroom.. It makes me sad 'cause everytime I get really excited for our supposed date- thinking we'll be going out, getting me so excited to really doll up- and then bam it's just sex.
I shouldn't even be complaining about the relationship so early on but fuck me I just wish we'd leave the bedroom once in a while. I want to be wined and dined not ploughed all the time. Don't get me wrong if you wine and dine me it will most definitely end in the bedroom but yeah. It's only been two months and he's not only stopped calling/texting but he cancels our dates. I went on a brief holiday to a different state for a week hoping he'd message or call me while I was away, hoping he'd miss me but the only time he called me was to tell me his best friends back.. I would be happy if his friend didn't hate me for no apparent reason.. Never met me but calls me a cunt. Anyway, somehow he finds time to spend 2 - 3 days straight with him OUT but struggles to find more than one day with me. My heart feels bruised by this. I try so hard to make him happy but I just end up frustrated.
So that's my love life... On to work.. Or lack there of rather.
I'm trying to do my business, Red Velvet Bites, for people who don't know I'm a struggling qualified pastry chef and business is slow and pretty much the last FIVE big orders have cancelled on me without even telling me. I've followed them up most haven't even bothered getting back to me let alone letting me know first. I really hate flakey people.
Anyway, I'm trying to put this negativity behind me and push through all the stress and drama to move forward with what ever i'm doing. It will all pick up for me. Hopefully..
I'll end this blog on a cute note.. Here's a cake I did recently;
oh and please follow my baked goods on instagram @redvelvetbitesgc
And here's a pic of me I guess.. haha
