Well finals are over. It was hell. On top of the stress of the exams themselves I was dealing with those damn boy issues and didnt study whatsoever. But I made it through. And with a 4.0 I might add. So I guess the week of worrying/black coffee/cigarettes/no sleep/no food/not studying worked out for me. But now here I am a week later already bored out of my skull. What is wrong with me? I should be enjoying this sense of freedom, but I find myself almost frantic trying to find something to do. I went and bought some books and thats helping, but I wake up and have that familiar wave of panic, thinking "Ok, what do I have to do today...oh yeah, nothing." I'm finding that when I have nothing that I must do, I can never decide on what I'd like to do. What does all this mean????
So I've been drinking...a lot. I'm still in the whole mess with the guy I'm talking to. The sitch has yet to change, save having become more desperate. So maybe you guys can give me some advice???
Mk:
I started talking to this guy and he was like "i have a girlfriend I'm trying to break up with, it will be cleared up soon." This was in March. We spent a lot of time together in the beginning and it was amazing. I had been on the prowl and up to that point, every guy was kinda like "eh, hes ok" but then I met this guy and was like "WOW." So I decided to be patient and let him work things out. But we continued to hang out. I let him lead, since he was the one in a predicament. Fast forward to now: the gf is still there. And its been ugly--nasty encounters at the bar, messages, ect. So we've decided not to really spend time with each other until things are sorted out, but I dont see any progress. He keeps saying that he wants to be with me, but not until things are taken care of. I feel like i'm being a pathetic little bitch for waiting around on him on one hand. On the other, I get asked out a lot, but I feel like if i went out with any of them, I'd just be settling since I cant have what I really want. And Im not so desperate to go on dates just because. Can someone please give me some advice?
So I've been drinking...a lot. I'm still in the whole mess with the guy I'm talking to. The sitch has yet to change, save having become more desperate. So maybe you guys can give me some advice???
Mk:
I started talking to this guy and he was like "i have a girlfriend I'm trying to break up with, it will be cleared up soon." This was in March. We spent a lot of time together in the beginning and it was amazing. I had been on the prowl and up to that point, every guy was kinda like "eh, hes ok" but then I met this guy and was like "WOW." So I decided to be patient and let him work things out. But we continued to hang out. I let him lead, since he was the one in a predicament. Fast forward to now: the gf is still there. And its been ugly--nasty encounters at the bar, messages, ect. So we've decided not to really spend time with each other until things are sorted out, but I dont see any progress. He keeps saying that he wants to be with me, but not until things are taken care of. I feel like i'm being a pathetic little bitch for waiting around on him on one hand. On the other, I get asked out a lot, but I feel like if i went out with any of them, I'd just be settling since I cant have what I really want. And Im not so desperate to go on dates just because. Can someone please give me some advice?
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yoshi_____:
I wouldn't get your hopes up too high. It's cool that you've been patient but i don't think that it's fair to you to be sticking around and seeing what develops with this person whenever that opportunity arises on his time. you could have actually been meeting others during that period of time who might've been into you as your are to him. I almost had a similiar situation and in the end she just ended back with her boyfriend. I guess do what you feel is right. Everyone's experience is different.
siouxicideshan32:
Thanks. I guess I'm just a hopeless romantic... 