Am so conflicted right now....my sister in law is going into labor and Ive miscarried only three days ago...how strange things are now. I am so happy for her.and my brother. They have so much ahead of them so much happiness. And yet I feel so selfish. I wish I had known sooner, maybe there was something that could have been done. I cant wait to see my first niece ever! And I pray for the baby that I will never know, who graced my life so briefly. I cant tell if the tears I cry are from joy or sadness.maybe its both.