Kirsty is gone, things will be so lonely without her here.
Im so restless lately. Just ready to leave the cliff. Every day I realize how fake things are here. Back in the day I remember we all had each others backs. Nowadays it's just a bunch of 14 yr. olds saying they crip. Fuck that. Fuck gangs...that's why there's no one around anymore. Everyone got locked up, killed, on the run. I understand those people weren't my "friends", they were hood niggas. But those hood niggas were more real with me than most of my "friends". They weren't afraid of tomorrow or ashamed of yesterday. They were just trying to make it one way or another and now they are all gone. It's time for me to move on, I know...but that's the life I've known. It's hard to get a real job that the government knows about when you have no employment history. It wasn't my fault...I had to do what I had to do to get myself something to eat. Even if it meant being known as "the white gurl with the white gurl". yes, it sucked. glad that's all over and I am now married waiting on my husband. Not wondering if ill live long enough to see the sun come up. sad story. true story.
Moving on...my baby SAMson is becoming a bit more than I can handle. It makes me super sad to think about giving him away, but....wait ill show you.
this nigga is big. and getting bigger. people look at me like im a bad mom. HE'S NOT FAT...HE'S FIT. I don't even know who I'm trying to lie to anymore.
Point is. He's bigger than my leg and he scares me sometimes when he gets pissed off at me. I'm a female...and no matter what that cat can kill me if I'm not prepared to kill him first. I'm not crazy. he has attacked me before...on my birthday. I was alone and didn't think I would make it. Since then I have had him neutered. He got bigger. I love him so much, but he should be with a guy who can care for him and isn't afraid of him. Animals can sense that and will take full advantage of it.
DAMN! I can't wait to go off to belize and do our little photo shoot. that should be tons of fun. I love getting naked outdoors. the way it's supposed to be...gotta be careful. Trying to keep my record clean until im 60.
Im so restless lately. Just ready to leave the cliff. Every day I realize how fake things are here. Back in the day I remember we all had each others backs. Nowadays it's just a bunch of 14 yr. olds saying they crip. Fuck that. Fuck gangs...that's why there's no one around anymore. Everyone got locked up, killed, on the run. I understand those people weren't my "friends", they were hood niggas. But those hood niggas were more real with me than most of my "friends". They weren't afraid of tomorrow or ashamed of yesterday. They were just trying to make it one way or another and now they are all gone. It's time for me to move on, I know...but that's the life I've known. It's hard to get a real job that the government knows about when you have no employment history. It wasn't my fault...I had to do what I had to do to get myself something to eat. Even if it meant being known as "the white gurl with the white gurl". yes, it sucked. glad that's all over and I am now married waiting on my husband. Not wondering if ill live long enough to see the sun come up. sad story. true story.
Moving on...my baby SAMson is becoming a bit more than I can handle. It makes me super sad to think about giving him away, but....wait ill show you.
this nigga is big. and getting bigger. people look at me like im a bad mom. HE'S NOT FAT...HE'S FIT. I don't even know who I'm trying to lie to anymore.
Point is. He's bigger than my leg and he scares me sometimes when he gets pissed off at me. I'm a female...and no matter what that cat can kill me if I'm not prepared to kill him first. I'm not crazy. he has attacked me before...on my birthday. I was alone and didn't think I would make it. Since then I have had him neutered. He got bigger. I love him so much, but he should be with a guy who can care for him and isn't afraid of him. Animals can sense that and will take full advantage of it.
DAMN! I can't wait to go off to belize and do our little photo shoot. that should be tons of fun. I love getting naked outdoors. the way it's supposed to be...gotta be careful. Trying to keep my record clean until im 60.
purpoison:
nice cat