sinemetu

oo the irony of life..ok so ive come to the conclusion im going to live a life alone for along time until i fins someone who chases me..ive come to the conclusion a time ago that everything happens for a reason and u may not know that reason at the time buttttt at some point you figure it out. ive figured it out and am contempt and happy and am so happy im not some of my friends right now. i hope that doesnt sound evil but realistically im learning how people think and thank jesus Buddha and the devil himself my mom taught me something. people consier me a vault and know im a good friend so i get stuck holding in secrets i dont need and not being able to share my voice bc i cant give any insight as if i know things. what a debacle. the one girl at worked kinda flipped out on me on friday night and i gave it right back..people didnt expect it. so as rumors arised i had to stand up from myself. it sucks. i let it go. i think this girl is nutz and no grasp on reality. tonight a bunch of us go out after work, this girl tags alone. i bite my tongue. 2nd bar is a strip clb were chillin hes never been there before. same girl is wasted. he turns to me and says dont worrry i know shes nutz. i dont see her anywhere and i get worried. bc i actually have a heart and care. shes comes back hand bleeding from obviously mis-shooting a vein. I dont know if theres a technical term but ive never shot up and dont plan too. no offense its just not my scene and seems like bad news. im just happy to be home in bed. my house smells amazing from the chickem soup i made in mycrock pot. im hoping tomorrow to wake up early and see the turtle exhibit at the aquarium. its my day off so im hoping itll be stress free and relaxing. im glad i could spit out all the words that were jumbled in my head..
good night
xoxox
me