lesson learned..when you think you are doing the wrong thing you probably are. tonight i wanted to go to the gym after another epic shift..what did i do? go to the bar thats open late night to say bye to one of the bartenders and see my ex from the summer who was afraid of true commitment who walked away after i waited all summer for him. of course hes not alone but with his new girlfriend..his best friends sister.. so as im getting scowled at my friends and I are getting ready to pay.. i say hey guy send those 2 shots of water. he goes ok comes back and go you wont hurt her right i laughed and wwe said our good byes. Through the whole break up and new girl I was super cool and just sad but never spiteful. it felt good for that split second to not think about the reaction and do something bad. i try to stay out of trouble that karma would not approve of but i needed that split second feeling that i know needed to just stand my guard, like yeah hes with you but id never take him back and he can talk as much as he wants but i needed to kinda just put my neck out there for once.o well off to bed i go to wait for this yucky snow storm. 6 months out of philly i must do it!
littlejohn22:
wow, you've been through a lot.. stay strong