sinemetu

so yesterday was the first day of diwali. a day of cleansing and celebration. i have walked away from the boy and his drama and am trying to start a new. it wasnt easy. whenever we were together it was great. but getting together was always a project and no relationship should feel that way..so out with the bad and in with a clean slate. im trying to center myself in situations in which i would lose my cool. ive been internalizing a lot of anger and trying to look at the big picture. so far its working. we shall see but for how long. i hope this is a new me and will give off lots of positive energy bringing positive change and happiness. makes sense in theory to me. my birthday is in less then a week and since i am no longer going away this weekend ive been trying to brainstorm what to do with 2 days off. so far all i have planned is an adventure with a new smoke buddy to buy some new glass. o and a brazillian and a manicure. this year everything will fall into place. im going to make it happen. im also looking to have some fun the night before thanksgiving. soooo if any philly or jeresy peeps want to meet up and get wild let me know..till then xooxoxox
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