sinemetu

im sooo behind on an update..one i saw pearl jam play philly last night amazing..when they played elderly women i literally cried. i was in the middle of 50 thousand people in the heat and rain all singing along to a song i used to listen to on the way to the beach with my mom and cousin. i think its finally going to be tatted on me. the song brings out so many emotions. i cut my hair and its amazing. i was scared because ive had a sew in for close to two years but i love being natural again. i also survived my first fantasy football draft. the commish of it is our kitchen manager and a huge dick. my ex helped me pick by texting me through it considering no one mentioned we werent using a board to pick but laptops. obviously i didnt bring mine. my team is pretty solid and is projected to take my first game this week by 32 points. im going to eat sleep and breathe football to spite these people. hmm what else is new. i still care about my ex and am not sure how to let go but being friends for now is better then having no one at all. last tuesday i pretty much died outside of a show tailgating. to the point cpr was performed. the people i went with left me in camden nj. with no shoes, no phone, nothing. the ems woman drove me home in her car. miracle worker literally. i was so shaken up when i got home i drove to his house and he let me crash on the couch. he could tell how shaken up i was. he obviously still cares but isnt ready to be in a relationship. im in no way holding myself back from dating but appreciate that we can be civilized and there for each other. he was my best friend and its tough to just walk away. im going to a wedding this weekend with on of my good friends, his brother is getting married. the dress is a dark creme color with a black belt and black heels. i hope its dark enough for a wedding. i dont want to be that girl who wears white. its def not bright white. tomorrow im hoping to wake up early and put more work into my bed. im making my own headboard out of pallets. when its done i will figure out the frame bit and cant wait for a new mattress.. ill leave some pictures..of these past 2 weeks. o and dont ever get a dermal..i had mine taken out super gross!!