sinemetu

so last night i had the closest thing to a panic attack ive had in a while..it was scary. i was thinking about my mom and stressing about money and let everything take over.. not good..i had a horrible headache that only got worse after the fact. why am i such a mess? well i need to realize i cant take 2 vacations with in weeks of each other and get my hair done and pay bills. so which to give up. the fact that i work my ass off still blows my mind that this is even an issue. it doesnt help that i have 2 dogs that i need to put in the kennel bc i dont have anyone to come over and watch them. the kennel is costing more than my own sleeping arrangments. out of control. my desire to be loved is also getting ridick. i know i should be single and take care of myself. but i just want to cuddle up and hold hands and do cute couple stuff. ugghh i wish i wasnt suck a sucker. i would love to have someone to come home to. i should probably try to sleep. i have an appointment at 12 to get my arm finished and blow money i should really be saving, im taking donations if anyones interested..
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me