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Wednesday Mar 08, 2006

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Well, unfortunately, I had a bit of a relapse today. For whatever reason (I blame the rain), I could not stop thinking about my ex, and how much fun that she must be having in her new life. While I am stuck in the mud with mounting bills and no prospects.

I find that I am getting a bit more upset with her (or, rather, the memory of her). I cannot understand how someone could be so callous, how someone could beg for marriage, and a short 14 months into it, decide that she was wrong. I just want her to feel the hurt she has caused.

And, of course, I feel guilty for feeling that.

Looks like wine tonight.
realistic67:
relapses....I know it well. And I understand the wish to want her to hurt over all of this past. But, when I was in dealing mode over my break up my counselor put it like this. I'll bet she's probably having a shitty time of it. Because we are all human, life is a trial and it often sucks for all of us. A broken relationship is like a clavicle break. Even after it heals you still feel this ghost pain when it's bad weather outside.

She has to know how she's made you feel. She must be feeling awful and guilty ( mind you she might be really good at hiding it.) most days when she thinks about you. Everyone has regrets, its a common denominator.

Late at night, with that wine toast your freedom to try again with a better person, after the storm is over.
Mar 11, 2006
simonkelly:
Thanks for the words, realistic. Good to hear an outside voice tell it like it is.
Mar 11, 2006

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