silvereve

I'm torn.

I can't decide which is worse having your domestic dispute outside in the open area of your condo complex so everyone can hear the accusations and put downs and feel the slamming of their door shaking our walls OR yelling and screaming inside the privacy of your condo in front of your three children.

Our neighbors have fought outside before and unfortunately ruined a very nice session my hubby and I were having when the yelling outside escalated to the husband yelling" I'm so mad I could beat you in your face". Suddenly an exotic romp in the living room is not so exciting.

Fights are uncomfortable, for everyone. I felt so bad. I can just sense the animosity and anger that they were feeling for each other just seeping through the walls into my somewhat tense home as I scramble to print out wedding invitations.

As a child of parental violence, I clench and battle my own feelings and wonder how the children feel. How will these arguments shape and mold their perspective about relationships in their future. I know how it shaped mine and I wouldn't want anyone to ever travel that road.

There is never music loud enough to drown.