silvereve

On my day off today I've an opportunity to really surf different sites, head down certain links, get lost and hit the back button as often as I wanted.

I'm not usually a surfer, I don't have the patience or attention span to sit, be still and "just go". I guess today was a day for difference.

I looked at my picture. Thought it was time to change it and realized I left the really nice camera at the office. I'm starting to enter into camera snobdom again. Can't say it's bad thing.

Then I thought about other peoples pictures. So I looked at names that peeked my interest, looked at photos and what their journal entries were.

I've decided what was my trigger for some SG's and what was a turn off. Confidence and self-appreciation versus wearing self-hate on the outside. I looked at body modifications, tattoo's and posture.

I have not had a lot of confidence until within the past two years or so. I chose to listen to others who disliked, hated, or depreciated my worth because they couldn't understand, they were jealous or were just cruel people. It saddens me to think that I let them hurt me all these years.

So what. Where am I going with all of this? Easy. I know why certain people are attractive to me. They don't care, they say what they need to say, and it's time to stop living vicariously.