Geez!! I have been soooooooooooo bored! Having no school and no job is driving my crazy!
That being said, I've missed SG. This community really is the best online community to be a part of.
Not much has been going on in my life.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) I was friends-with-benefits'ing it with that dude I told you about. It really went nowhere. We had mutually decided we would just be friends and have sex with no strings, and then he starts telling me that he wants me and only me. "No bullshit, let's do this. I don't want anyone else to have you."
Yeah, whatever. I can't even sleep in the same bed with the guy. He doesn't respect my wishes. When I had the biopsy a while ago, I was supposed to abstain from sex for two weeks, and I told him that. He agreed, but then pushed sex. I mean, I consented but I just think that someone who wants to partner up with me would take my health into consideration instead of listening to his own libido.
I'm done. I just haven't told him yet. I spent Christmas afternoon and night with him. We have nothing to talk about. He has such disdain for his family, it's unsettling a little. I consider my family so important to me, and his lack of attachment and desire for family, I can't imagine him being very respectful to what's important to me. He talks shit about our friend (his best friend)'s girlfriend. Always calls her a cunt just because she doesn't like him. The whole thing doesn't sit well.
I haven't talked about this with anyone. I miss SG just for this capability. It's easy to air what's on my mind because I don't have to worry about what people in my "real life" are going to have to say about how I really feel. I think it's better for people I know, but don't know super well, to know more about what I'm thinking than people who I spend and have spent personal one-on-one time with. AndTwitter is a joke. 140 characters is not enough to really say what's on my mind. It's easier to type for me. My thoughts flow easier when my fingers aren't moving across paper with a pen in it. This feels more like a direct line into my brain... and my brain has been swimming with shit going on in my life.
Life isn't hard. Life is actually pretty awesome lately, but no one understands me better than me... and blogging, journaling or whatever you wanna call it is just me being able to unload the never-ending stream of thoughts I have in any given moment.
Maybe I should blog more on my "real" blog, but that's just way too revealing. Anyone and their mother can tap into my recorded consciousness and that's way too vulnerable for me.
Man, I've missed this...
Sorry for the random rambling. I've been in need. I'll come back, and maybe make more sense.
My words run away from me when I'm stoned...
Muchos besos para todos!
Aimee 
Still, welcome back. No matter how much this community could be different I still never want to leave. I, like you, say everything here. I don't want to lose that.